Assortment
1. Today was gray and drizzly and should have been "blah" but I love it because it reminds me of Seattle, which I'm missing more and more lately. Plus, the weekend was perfect, sunny, and gorgeous and I was able to sit at the park in the sun and do some writing yesterday, so it can be gray on Monday when I'm stuck at work all it wants. :P
2. Yay that I was able to do some writing, though. It's more an issue of feeling the writing urge than anything else, and I need to indulge when it comes along. I still feel like I'm in the novice writer phase where everything I come up with is crap, but that used to prevent me from writing and now it means I let myself write with the caveat that no one ever has to see it -- because it's the first step in improving. That was the main lesson I learned from Nano.
3. I was able to hang out with my friend who was here for Police Week, and that also made me nostalgic for my peeps back in Seattle... We went out to dinner with her brother's former partner, who survived the shooting, and the partner's boyfriend, who's also been through a traumatic police-related event so they were both also here for Police Week. They were both lovely and happy and you'd never guess they'd been through such trauma, which made me think about the fact that a) I'm glad they can continue on and have found joy in each other, and b) they undoubtedly do have heavy stuff they're dealing with, but hopefully are dealing with it. My boyfriend was wondering if some people -- police officers, for example -- are naturally better at recovering from certain traumas than others... I don't know, but it makes me so grateful for the police officers out there protecting us.
4. I'm caught between two friends who aren't really friends with each other anymore and it's really awkward. : / The three of us went to high school together and then were roommates post-college for a few years before I started law school. One of them is one of my dearest friends -- intensely loyal, fun, and sarcastic/sassy. But woe to those who get on her bad side; she holds grudges. And Second Friend managed to get on her bad side over the course of the last few years by becoming increasingly self-centered -- too busy with her active social calendar to even RSVP to our other friend's baby shower, going months without communicating, only talking about herself when we would be graced with her presence... It used to bother me until I wrote her off as Not Worth The Effort -- essentially, demoting her. We keep in touch now, but I wouldn't say we're especially close, and that's fine because it's easier for me to maintain "loose ties" with her than go through the equivalent of a friend breakup. Just kind of natural drifting apart. She's getting married this fall and has been trying to reconnect with people to invite them to the wedding. But First Friend isn't interested in reconnecting, which she sees as a shallow effort for Second Friend to seem like she has a lot of friends at the wedding. (Also, weird: don't most people try to whittle down their wedding invitation lists?) Anyway, First Friend hasn't responded to any of Second Friend's communications -- which are mass emails announcing her engagement and then requesting addresses for Save the Date cards -- and figures that her blatant non-responsiveness functions as indicating that she's not interested in continued communication, reflective of the fact that they haven't actually been friends for a few years, so why act like they are? But Second Friend isn't taking silence for an answer and has been asking me for my "insight", which I declined to do because I so don't want to be in the middle of this. Now Second Friend has point blank asked me to send First Friend's phone number to her and First Friend doesn't want me to. I can't think of a nice way to not give the phone number. I'm of course respecting First Friend's wishes -- she's the one I'm actually close to -- but it will suck to be the bearer of what's essentially a rejection that hasn't sunk in yet. :( UGH. I thought I left this stuff behind in high school. No, middle school, because I didn't even go through this crap in high school.
(@)#&$%)#@*$)#*$#)*( My internet connection at home is still being an unreliable bastard. It will just randomly shut off. I can usually get it going again by restarting the AirPort connection, but what the hell does that mean is happening technology-wise???
2. Yay that I was able to do some writing, though. It's more an issue of feeling the writing urge than anything else, and I need to indulge when it comes along. I still feel like I'm in the novice writer phase where everything I come up with is crap, but that used to prevent me from writing and now it means I let myself write with the caveat that no one ever has to see it -- because it's the first step in improving. That was the main lesson I learned from Nano.
3. I was able to hang out with my friend who was here for Police Week, and that also made me nostalgic for my peeps back in Seattle... We went out to dinner with her brother's former partner, who survived the shooting, and the partner's boyfriend, who's also been through a traumatic police-related event so they were both also here for Police Week. They were both lovely and happy and you'd never guess they'd been through such trauma, which made me think about the fact that a) I'm glad they can continue on and have found joy in each other, and b) they undoubtedly do have heavy stuff they're dealing with, but hopefully are dealing with it. My boyfriend was wondering if some people -- police officers, for example -- are naturally better at recovering from certain traumas than others... I don't know, but it makes me so grateful for the police officers out there protecting us.
4. I'm caught between two friends who aren't really friends with each other anymore and it's really awkward. : / The three of us went to high school together and then were roommates post-college for a few years before I started law school. One of them is one of my dearest friends -- intensely loyal, fun, and sarcastic/sassy. But woe to those who get on her bad side; she holds grudges. And Second Friend managed to get on her bad side over the course of the last few years by becoming increasingly self-centered -- too busy with her active social calendar to even RSVP to our other friend's baby shower, going months without communicating, only talking about herself when we would be graced with her presence... It used to bother me until I wrote her off as Not Worth The Effort -- essentially, demoting her. We keep in touch now, but I wouldn't say we're especially close, and that's fine because it's easier for me to maintain "loose ties" with her than go through the equivalent of a friend breakup. Just kind of natural drifting apart. She's getting married this fall and has been trying to reconnect with people to invite them to the wedding. But First Friend isn't interested in reconnecting, which she sees as a shallow effort for Second Friend to seem like she has a lot of friends at the wedding. (Also, weird: don't most people try to whittle down their wedding invitation lists?) Anyway, First Friend hasn't responded to any of Second Friend's communications -- which are mass emails announcing her engagement and then requesting addresses for Save the Date cards -- and figures that her blatant non-responsiveness functions as indicating that she's not interested in continued communication, reflective of the fact that they haven't actually been friends for a few years, so why act like they are? But Second Friend isn't taking silence for an answer and has been asking me for my "insight", which I declined to do because I so don't want to be in the middle of this. Now Second Friend has point blank asked me to send First Friend's phone number to her and First Friend doesn't want me to. I can't think of a nice way to not give the phone number. I'm of course respecting First Friend's wishes -- she's the one I'm actually close to -- but it will suck to be the bearer of what's essentially a rejection that hasn't sunk in yet. :( UGH. I thought I left this stuff behind in high school. No, middle school, because I didn't even go through this crap in high school.
(@)#&$%)#@*$)#*$#)*( My internet connection at home is still being an unreliable bastard. It will just randomly shut off. I can usually get it going again by restarting the AirPort connection, but what the hell does that mean is happening technology-wise???