Sooo.
I realize most of my friends are gonna kill me for this.
But me and Nathan are back together now. Things are so weird between us though its just.. weird. its like i don't even know how to talk to him now. but i do love him.. and i do miss what we had... it's worth another try..I mean, who wants to give up one more shot at happiness? i mean i know ive done it millions of times before.. and i know that everyone seems to think its just gonna keep happining, that hes gonna keep breaking my heart and im just gonan keep letting him walk all over me... but thats not going to happen. this'll be the last try... if it doesnt work out this time... then i'll slap myself... and it'll be over. for good. but yea.
we're gonan try hard this time..i hope it works... but theres really not much that anyone can do, i would like to try just once more. I mean what if hes serious this time, and he means it. All i ever wanted was to be happy with him... and im really starting to think he just might be serious about me. Just maybe, hes as serious about this as i am. If it doesnt work, everyone has full right to yell at me and tell me how stupid it was... but i just want to try just one more time. it cant hurt that bad. I really do love him.. and ive gotta mean at least something to him if he was willing to crawl at my feet for five monthes just to get me to think about it. Just maybe..