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The sudden sense of loss when you all go and I stay here should not take me by surprise. It never felt like this when you were/I was just taking the bus home. Of course this is a lot further, which is why it shouldn’t be surprising.
This isn’t home, and I just don’t want to be here. I almost wanted to just get in the car with you, but again I have thinks that I should be doing, thinks I should get done before I leave.
I don’t think I want to come back and do things exactly the way I was doing them before, because I really was stuck in a rut. There’s nothing wrong with the fact that you lot are all into your routines, but I need to be firmer about not always letting those routines dictate to me, who needs a little more variety, and wants to meet a different set of people too.
Specifically a different set of men. I want a familly one day, and I keep drifting along till uys who areassume I’m that bit geekier than I am ask me out and saying yes when I know it’s going to end exactly the same way, because I really like geeky guys as friend, but shouldn’t date people whose highlight as the week is the same as mine, as this leaves me feeling there’s little to talk about and that I’m actually quite bored. There is apparently such a thing as having too much in common.
Naively thee is also a part of me that’s still looking for a hero, and the whole point of roleplay is it’s our chance to feel heroic because we aren’t really that heroic in real life.
All of which would be nice
But if it’s a choice between that old happy rut minus mike’s slobby living habits or this wretched horrible loneliness up here in London then I think- I KNOW i’d rather have the old rut back
Guess it’s true you don’t miss your water till the well runs dry. Lucky for me it looks like it might fill up again sometime next year *crosses fingers*.
This isn’t home, and I just don’t want to be here. I almost wanted to just get in the car with you, but again I have thinks that I should be doing, thinks I should get done before I leave.
I don’t think I want to come back and do things exactly the way I was doing them before, because I really was stuck in a rut. There’s nothing wrong with the fact that you lot are all into your routines, but I need to be firmer about not always letting those routines dictate to me, who needs a little more variety, and wants to meet a different set of people too.
Specifically a different set of men. I want a familly one day, and I keep drifting along till uys who areassume I’m that bit geekier than I am ask me out and saying yes when I know it’s going to end exactly the same way, because I really like geeky guys as friend, but shouldn’t date people whose highlight as the week is the same as mine, as this leaves me feeling there’s little to talk about and that I’m actually quite bored. There is apparently such a thing as having too much in common.
Naively thee is also a part of me that’s still looking for a hero, and the whole point of roleplay is it’s our chance to feel heroic because we aren’t really that heroic in real life.
All of which would be nice
But if it’s a choice between that old happy rut minus mike’s slobby living habits or this wretched horrible loneliness up here in London then I think- I KNOW i’d rather have the old rut back
Guess it’s true you don’t miss your water till the well runs dry. Lucky for me it looks like it might fill up again sometime next year *crosses fingers*.