Banana Crushed...
Been a while since my last LJ post. I've mostly been posting on MySpace lately. Anyway, things have been SO much better lately... with really no explination or reason why. A few weeks or so ago, I just desided I wasn't going to be sad about the same old thing anymore. End of story. And I haven't been. I haven't listened to any song relomtely sad in a long time, with the exception of "Since U been gone." But it's been kinda hard to keep up the past few days. Don't really know why. I guess I just naturely have mood swings that last for long periods of time.
Ok, I have a crush on this guy... I had thought I had like several, but I realized, it's just the most for one. I kinda got caught up in it and was excited about it and let it go a little to far. I already am feeling unpleasent emotions do to it (Saying "I got hurt" just sounds so cliche and 13y/o emo girlish) and I really feel afraid, I don't feel like "Actually" trying to empress someone enough to get them to like me. I don't wanna have to chase after another guy that I really do like and not have him chase back. It's not worth it and I don't have the energy emortionally for it anymore. But... I do like him.... like, I can't explain it without sounding weird or rather emo-esk. ::Sigh:: It hit very quickly... I wanted to have a crush... I don't know... I'm not making sence. Oh well, long story short, I liked him, liked him more, don't have the energy to make it happen, if it even could. Ok, I'ma move on now.
I really need to practice flute again. I loved it so much. I was decent. Not great, but I could play pleasingly. (It pleased me at least) I'ma start working on that now. New project! Anyway... I hate work!! Uhg... I don't detest it yet, but it is more and more unpleasent everyday. But I love the people there...some more then others. Jessica is the shit!! I love her so much! Chichamagitch! lol anyway, time to go. TTFN Thanks for your time! TTFN!
Ok, I have a crush on this guy... I had thought I had like several, but I realized, it's just the most for one. I kinda got caught up in it and was excited about it and let it go a little to far. I already am feeling unpleasent emotions do to it (Saying "I got hurt" just sounds so cliche and 13y/o emo girlish) and I really feel afraid, I don't feel like "Actually" trying to empress someone enough to get them to like me. I don't wanna have to chase after another guy that I really do like and not have him chase back. It's not worth it and I don't have the energy emortionally for it anymore. But... I do like him.... like, I can't explain it without sounding weird or rather emo-esk. ::Sigh:: It hit very quickly... I wanted to have a crush... I don't know... I'm not making sence. Oh well, long story short, I liked him, liked him more, don't have the energy to make it happen, if it even could. Ok, I'ma move on now.
I really need to practice flute again. I loved it so much. I was decent. Not great, but I could play pleasingly. (It pleased me at least) I'ma start working on that now. New project! Anyway... I hate work!! Uhg... I don't detest it yet, but it is more and more unpleasent everyday. But I love the people there...some more then others. Jessica is the shit!! I love her so much! Chichamagitch! lol anyway, time to go. TTFN Thanks for your time! TTFN!