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I kinda lost it today. I feel bad for doing so but I just could not take it anymore. I am trying to get rid of these problems that keep popping up in my life. Now I am known to be smart and past experiences have taught me that is the same problem keeps coming up and there is nothing U can do to fix it..then it is not meant to be. It's like I am fighting the good Lord. he is trying to make me see one thing and I am trying to do things my way. I can't go down that road any more so I am trying to see what's going to come about my current situation.
I feel bad for her and I cried for her today because I feel her pain so much it's sad. I know how she feels because I am there with her. The only difference is that I am coming out and she is just going in and Lord knows I am trying to have the strength to hold her up. If she sticks to her word then I feel in my heart that everything will be fine. If she does not I am sad to say that it will end what we have tried so hard to build. friendships are by far not easy. It's almost like a marriage. I feel very strongly about friends. If U say U are mine then prove it. Point blank. If U love me U have to prove it because words are meaningless to me. I still have faith that this is right and everything will be fine.
I got another email from my mother yesterday and she still has not mentioned wether she has been getting the ones I send her and it is really annoying me. If she is not then she should say it and if she is then acknowledge it dog gone it.....ugh. The relationship is not steady so I get disgusted real quick.
I try really hard not to get annoyed but it's happens really quick because I have a low tolerance for stupidity. I guess I will have to work harder...figures.
I just got photoshop and I am trying my hardest to work it out. It is not easy...well most of it is but not all the details and for the life of me I don't know how to combine different pics into one so then can be as one. I worked on that for about 3 hours until I was frustrated. O well I will try again tonight.
The plans have changed and I don't think I am going to school down here. I might just get a job and save money and then go to school when I get back home. Janice says she is ready to go and I don't blame her so am I. I am going to pray on it and let the Lord lead me the way He wants me to go. I gotta learn to sit still...whew.
Well I guess I better go to sleep because before I know it daysia will be here to wreck the house..lol
Peace.......
I feel bad for her and I cried for her today because I feel her pain so much it's sad. I know how she feels because I am there with her. The only difference is that I am coming out and she is just going in and Lord knows I am trying to have the strength to hold her up. If she sticks to her word then I feel in my heart that everything will be fine. If she does not I am sad to say that it will end what we have tried so hard to build. friendships are by far not easy. It's almost like a marriage. I feel very strongly about friends. If U say U are mine then prove it. Point blank. If U love me U have to prove it because words are meaningless to me. I still have faith that this is right and everything will be fine.
I got another email from my mother yesterday and she still has not mentioned wether she has been getting the ones I send her and it is really annoying me. If she is not then she should say it and if she is then acknowledge it dog gone it.....ugh. The relationship is not steady so I get disgusted real quick.
I try really hard not to get annoyed but it's happens really quick because I have a low tolerance for stupidity. I guess I will have to work harder...figures.
I just got photoshop and I am trying my hardest to work it out. It is not easy...well most of it is but not all the details and for the life of me I don't know how to combine different pics into one so then can be as one. I worked on that for about 3 hours until I was frustrated. O well I will try again tonight.
The plans have changed and I don't think I am going to school down here. I might just get a job and save money and then go to school when I get back home. Janice says she is ready to go and I don't blame her so am I. I am going to pray on it and let the Lord lead me the way He wants me to go. I gotta learn to sit still...whew.
Well I guess I better go to sleep because before I know it daysia will be here to wreck the house..lol
Peace.......