xmas fail
This xmas is not good.
I have a family member in mourning and want so desperately to do something to help but feel completely useless. Its so sad and its impossible at this time of year when the focus is on family not to feel deeply for everyone.
Cam won't be around much because of work which just plain sucks cause i could do with the hugs now.
Too much time around my family makes me feel claustrophobic, there are so many people in one place I have to keep trying to find somewhere quieter and it makes me feel guilty.
My sister in the states sent a very intense letter about a month ago and I am unable to reply with anything that even sounds like a reasonable response.
Everything else is going well and with exception of the first one, none of the other 3 should not be enough to really upset me but combined they make me want to skip xmas and hide for the day.
I just feel sad and pathetic.
I have a family member in mourning and want so desperately to do something to help but feel completely useless. Its so sad and its impossible at this time of year when the focus is on family not to feel deeply for everyone.
Cam won't be around much because of work which just plain sucks cause i could do with the hugs now.
Too much time around my family makes me feel claustrophobic, there are so many people in one place I have to keep trying to find somewhere quieter and it makes me feel guilty.
My sister in the states sent a very intense letter about a month ago and I am unable to reply with anything that even sounds like a reasonable response.
Everything else is going well and with exception of the first one, none of the other 3 should not be enough to really upset me but combined they make me want to skip xmas and hide for the day.
I just feel sad and pathetic.