It has to be written down, so i can find out wether its real or my mind made it up.
Ive been up for an hour and a half now, unable to sleep.
This is so surreal. so completely, wonderfully surreal.
Basically, he's liked me for a few weeks now, and 'maybe' liked me for a while before that. He's been in denial and until now has refused to consider anything because everyone else suggested it and he felt pressured into something he wasnt sure of.
He'd been quiet the past few days, disconcertingly so. Friday was weird, he kind of let go a little and we had a play fight on the grass, and touched each others hands in a way that was different to before. I didnt bring it up, what was the point? I just felt 'we've been through this before, he knows where he stands, i know where I stand, but why the hell do things escalate to a place where, apparently we shouldnt be?'
then yesterday I went for a walk, and he came and joined me. I asked him why he was so quiet and then he said it. At first i was geared up for another 'we have to be more careful' talk, then he said 'I think ive fallen for you' And I almost had a heart attack.
He loves me. He doesnt just like me, he loves me. He says im amazing, he says im beautiful, and he touches me now, all the time, a hand on the back, on the shoulder, a kiss on the hand, a caress that I feel like ive been waiting for, for years. I cant believe it. I really cant.
He fell in love with me.
WITH ME!
Im still waiting to wake up properly and find out this is all a crazy dream.
We're such a puke-making couple, and its GLORIOUS.
haha.
This is so surreal. so completely, wonderfully surreal.
Basically, he's liked me for a few weeks now, and 'maybe' liked me for a while before that. He's been in denial and until now has refused to consider anything because everyone else suggested it and he felt pressured into something he wasnt sure of.
He'd been quiet the past few days, disconcertingly so. Friday was weird, he kind of let go a little and we had a play fight on the grass, and touched each others hands in a way that was different to before. I didnt bring it up, what was the point? I just felt 'we've been through this before, he knows where he stands, i know where I stand, but why the hell do things escalate to a place where, apparently we shouldnt be?'
then yesterday I went for a walk, and he came and joined me. I asked him why he was so quiet and then he said it. At first i was geared up for another 'we have to be more careful' talk, then he said 'I think ive fallen for you' And I almost had a heart attack.
He loves me. He doesnt just like me, he loves me. He says im amazing, he says im beautiful, and he touches me now, all the time, a hand on the back, on the shoulder, a kiss on the hand, a caress that I feel like ive been waiting for, for years. I cant believe it. I really cant.
He fell in love with me.
WITH ME!
Im still waiting to wake up properly and find out this is all a crazy dream.
We're such a puke-making couple, and its GLORIOUS.
haha.