You are the lie.

[safetospeak]

I can't believe it.

You're the only person who's capable of making me feel/act like this. Ask any of my friends. They'll tell you the same thing. I'm a relatively cheerful person. Why is it that whenever I spend time with you, I'm counting down the seconds? Why do i end up either biting my tongue or the inside of my cheek so hard that I bleed when I'm near you? Just the thought of having to spend time with you makes my vision blur. I wish I was overstating that. I really do.

After I leave you, I feel as vulnerable as a godamn kitten. I've spent a long time building up my emotional walls to protect myself from douchebags. I never thought for one second that I'd have to protect myself from you. Maybe that's why still to this day, you're the only one who can hurt me. I hate you for that.

I hate that I'm going to lose sleep tonight because of you.

I hate that I'm going to go up to my room and listen to shitty depressing music tonight.

I hate that I'm posting this online, like I'm looking for pity like some kinda wussy asshole.

I hate my haircut.

I hate you, LJ.

-bran.