So far from you in my mind I go. But my heart hurts, it brings me back before I know.

[saferindreams]

Talked to Lauren last night, and it was made very clear to me that we won't be getting back together. Apparently, it should have been clear to me a while ago, and I misunderstood. I get it now though, and feel like an ass. So, I'm done.

I'll be staying with some friends for a while, so this may be it for a while. Thank you for all the support.

Comments

[veryty]

You know that being together takes two who are willing to try even if it requires change and sacrifice. And you can believe there are plenty of couples who stay together for the wrong reasons, in less-than-agreeable arrangements, and couples who split up because one isn't willing or able to try

[saferindreams]

Thank you. Your comments always mean a lot to me.

She tried for a long time, and I had completely tuned out of life. It wasn't until she'd quit and started moving on that I saw how badly I'd fucked things up, and how important she was to me. Now, to little to late, and I have to live down that regret.

I've been so unstable lately, I wish I could stop feeling for a while. As for my best self, I feel that I'm actively working on that, but for every step I take, I'm held back. Forces in my life actively trying to keep me where I am, and how I am.

I'd love to be at a new job, but sadly I don't think that will be an option for a long time. I am really hoping for that promotion though, and trying my hardest to get it.