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Had possibly the worst bout of cold/flu whatever these past few days. i cannot possibly recall having any sleep at all. horrible. it got so bad that dehyrated as i was , i went to get some water at 3 this morning passed out in the bathroom and found myself tits up in the hallway in a lot of pain. luckily my folks heard all the commotion...how embarassing.
feeling a lot better today must have sweated most of it out.
on really bad news, ive discovered that one of my aunts who has undergone surgery for breast cancer has now having to have the breast removed and chemo. however this may have something to do with (and im sure my aunt lynn knows this) that smoking 20 a day for 20+ years if not more didnt help.
so guess what another crack on chucking the devils weed is on the cards, not only beacuse a more obvious wake up call on its effects couldnt have been more forthcoming, but also the burning chocked feeling in chest and lungs is not just due to the bout of seasonal flu ive been suffering from, (or it hasnt helped matters).
been thinking a lot about this girl recently. havent seen her for a few weeks, and its prob a really bad idea to go anywhere with it, but its really kicking my ass, shame one of her friends suffers from 'im not straight but i'll pretend to be while others are impinging on my territory' bullshit. other wise i'd might be more the wiser to what chance i have.
i am not looking for a relationship for a very long time. if i wasnt actually GETTING laid that thought would NEVER cross my mind.
so im left with a lot of changes to be made, and i hope i can do them, be it quitting fags, more assertiveness and less leering at women (the girl in question may be right about this, even if i've changed since then, but frnakly she fucking wishes i was doing it, no matter how hot she might be)
Hell is for mint friday
luv n stuff
feeling a lot better today must have sweated most of it out.
on really bad news, ive discovered that one of my aunts who has undergone surgery for breast cancer has now having to have the breast removed and chemo. however this may have something to do with (and im sure my aunt lynn knows this) that smoking 20 a day for 20+ years if not more didnt help.
so guess what another crack on chucking the devils weed is on the cards, not only beacuse a more obvious wake up call on its effects couldnt have been more forthcoming, but also the burning chocked feeling in chest and lungs is not just due to the bout of seasonal flu ive been suffering from, (or it hasnt helped matters).
been thinking a lot about this girl recently. havent seen her for a few weeks, and its prob a really bad idea to go anywhere with it, but its really kicking my ass, shame one of her friends suffers from 'im not straight but i'll pretend to be while others are impinging on my territory' bullshit. other wise i'd might be more the wiser to what chance i have.
i am not looking for a relationship for a very long time. if i wasnt actually GETTING laid that thought would NEVER cross my mind.
so im left with a lot of changes to be made, and i hope i can do them, be it quitting fags, more assertiveness and less leering at women (the girl in question may be right about this, even if i've changed since then, but frnakly she fucking wishes i was doing it, no matter how hot she might be)
Hell is for mint friday
luv n stuff