Materializing (and icons)
Huh.
Got a random word for a title that might mean more than I intended.
I mean, I just sort of was trying to continue on the whole 'ghost' theme I'd started, but...
Alright.
Recently, I've felt alive.
And this? Is big.
I've spent the last four years since I graduated college kind of wandering aimlessly and picking up stray causes and goals that lasted me for a bit--but now I sort of feel...focused. Like I'm capable of learning again. Like I don't have to just stagnate and fall into a comfortable rut.
But Revelations require a lot of work and hardship, don't they?
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I think the hardest thing is learning that...no matter how perfect you are, you can always be more perfect.
Which. Lets face it--sounds conceited.
But it's the lesson that I learned, and its kind of a big one. There's nothing wrong with shooting for being absolutely the best that you can be--and realizing, along the way, that, even if you've achieved everything you set out to....it doesn't make you right. We can always learn more.
And now that I know I can be wrong I feel capable of listening, again. Of trying to find out what is right. Of aiming myself.
I owe some people for this.
DJ--For being the first person to listen to my point of views and letting me know that it wasn't crazy to think outside the norm. For encouraging it.
Ryn--For helping me compare my vision of the world to the world itself, and pointing out to me that things should be the way I want them to be. For showing me how to change my perspective based off my own needs, and listen to the truths that compelled me.
Ryuu--For teaching me words. For defining with stark clarity the nebulous concepts floating in my head. For resonating.
Amanda--For reminding me that, no matter how high up my head is in the clouds, reality does still exist and requires a bit of attention now and again.
Nella--For inspiring me to start combining this reality and fantasy into something that I will be proud of, and helping me to realize how much I still needed to find out, first.
To those of you who hold strong opinions about this world and our position in it...
Be it religion, or race, or rights...
I cannot guarantee that I will always agree, even if you are my friends. Especially if you are my friends, maybe.
But I can promise you that I will listen, and that I will acknowledge what you believe, and that I will support your thoughts as valid and deserving of recognition as much as mine are.
I want it to be more than tolerance--because I want to learn.
Which...might...still be selfish, but...if we're all helping each other out with that which is free to duplicate, there'll be a lot more knowledge in the world. I like this plan.
I like a better world.
Thanks so much, friends, (all of you), for leading me towards it~
OK BUT ENOUGH SERIOUS STUFF FOR TODAY.
I have realized that I am in pretty desperate need of icons for this journal. I blame you, Axiom, for getting me used to playing with so many. x-x
SO.
This is kind of a weird request....
But...
Friendslist, I would really like to make my icons special. If you have one icon that particularly speaks to you, or that every LJ should have, or that really, really just reminds you of me...
I would really be grateful for one, from you.
And then I can put a super special message in its icon comment about how cool you are, and...it will mean so much more to me, this way.
<3
(Which means I probably ought to actually get a paid account, now that I'm thinking about it. Damn. I've had this one for such a long, long time...)
Got a random word for a title that might mean more than I intended.
I mean, I just sort of was trying to continue on the whole 'ghost' theme I'd started, but...
Alright.
Recently, I've felt alive.
And this? Is big.
I've spent the last four years since I graduated college kind of wandering aimlessly and picking up stray causes and goals that lasted me for a bit--but now I sort of feel...focused. Like I'm capable of learning again. Like I don't have to just stagnate and fall into a comfortable rut.
But Revelations require a lot of work and hardship, don't they?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I think the hardest thing is learning that...no matter how perfect you are, you can always be more perfect.
Which. Lets face it--sounds conceited.
But it's the lesson that I learned, and its kind of a big one. There's nothing wrong with shooting for being absolutely the best that you can be--and realizing, along the way, that, even if you've achieved everything you set out to....it doesn't make you right. We can always learn more.
And now that I know I can be wrong I feel capable of listening, again. Of trying to find out what is right. Of aiming myself.
I owe some people for this.
DJ--For being the first person to listen to my point of views and letting me know that it wasn't crazy to think outside the norm. For encouraging it.
Ryn--For helping me compare my vision of the world to the world itself, and pointing out to me that things should be the way I want them to be. For showing me how to change my perspective based off my own needs, and listen to the truths that compelled me.
Ryuu--For teaching me words. For defining with stark clarity the nebulous concepts floating in my head. For resonating.
Amanda--For reminding me that, no matter how high up my head is in the clouds, reality does still exist and requires a bit of attention now and again.
Nella--For inspiring me to start combining this reality and fantasy into something that I will be proud of, and helping me to realize how much I still needed to find out, first.
To those of you who hold strong opinions about this world and our position in it...
Be it religion, or race, or rights...
I cannot guarantee that I will always agree, even if you are my friends. Especially if you are my friends, maybe.
But I can promise you that I will listen, and that I will acknowledge what you believe, and that I will support your thoughts as valid and deserving of recognition as much as mine are.
I want it to be more than tolerance--because I want to learn.
Which...might...still be selfish, but...if we're all helping each other out with that which is free to duplicate, there'll be a lot more knowledge in the world. I like this plan.
I like a better world.
Thanks so much, friends, (all of you), for leading me towards it~
OK BUT ENOUGH SERIOUS STUFF FOR TODAY.
I have realized that I am in pretty desperate need of icons for this journal. I blame you, Axiom, for getting me used to playing with so many. x-x
SO.
This is kind of a weird request....
But...
Friendslist, I would really like to make my icons special. If you have one icon that particularly speaks to you, or that every LJ should have, or that really, really just reminds you of me...
I would really be grateful for one, from you.
And then I can put a super special message in its icon comment about how cool you are, and...it will mean so much more to me, this way.
<3
(Which means I probably ought to actually get a paid account, now that I'm thinking about it. Damn. I've had this one for such a long, long time...)