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Gracious, my life has taken a turn for the busier, and better in some ways. Though it's not without change and a bit of sacrifice. Sacrifice of time, in that time that I use towards gaming and keeping in touch with friends from online, towards increased time away from the computer. While this is not a bad thing, trying to find a perfect balance, I'm not sure if there is such a thing.
The changes in the season and the household have all been wonderful and so full of new life. Of personal awakenings...now...is probably one of the most important at this point in my life.
I've come to during an incrediably long period in my life, to cherish the folks I've met online, who've so enriched my life and to some extent, helped me to keep my sanity.
I'm now re-emerging it seems into the world. I'm re-examining myself and to a degree re-discovering forgotten parts. Like a sleeper that has awakened. It's been so very long since I've felt this incredible sense of renewal and hope, and a renewed sense of faith in myself and my abilities.
I'm shifting my focus from leading in an online game scenario, to things that I'd almost given up on, in the off line life. Several have come to look to me over time, to lead them, and keep them going, i.e. being the glue that holds them together. The real glue however, in the core group...is friendship...that transcends any given game. Folks desire to remain in contact despite the game situation. I'm watching them grow stronger in their friendships, as I've taken a back seat. I'm pleased and proud of them...once perfect strangers, unsure, growing sure in the bonds of mutual friendship. I know that I am missed, and I will keep in touch. But I know that my role has changed, and it's time for me to move on. So much has been affected by these wonderful people. My writing, my artwork, and my outlook on a great many things. One day I'll meet them all in person, as I have managed to meet quite a few. In fact one is now a house-mate, having traveled 1100 and some odd miles to live here.
Spring has sprung, in so many many ways...I feel a sense of hope, I can really see that there is light, love and laughter, that the darkness is and has been rolling away. So now I must go and greet the light with a smile on my face and love in my heart.
The changes in the season and the household have all been wonderful and so full of new life. Of personal awakenings...now...is probably one of the most important at this point in my life.
I've come to during an incrediably long period in my life, to cherish the folks I've met online, who've so enriched my life and to some extent, helped me to keep my sanity.
I'm now re-emerging it seems into the world. I'm re-examining myself and to a degree re-discovering forgotten parts. Like a sleeper that has awakened. It's been so very long since I've felt this incredible sense of renewal and hope, and a renewed sense of faith in myself and my abilities.
I'm shifting my focus from leading in an online game scenario, to things that I'd almost given up on, in the off line life. Several have come to look to me over time, to lead them, and keep them going, i.e. being the glue that holds them together. The real glue however, in the core group...is friendship...that transcends any given game. Folks desire to remain in contact despite the game situation. I'm watching them grow stronger in their friendships, as I've taken a back seat. I'm pleased and proud of them...once perfect strangers, unsure, growing sure in the bonds of mutual friendship. I know that I am missed, and I will keep in touch. But I know that my role has changed, and it's time for me to move on. So much has been affected by these wonderful people. My writing, my artwork, and my outlook on a great many things. One day I'll meet them all in person, as I have managed to meet quite a few. In fact one is now a house-mate, having traveled 1100 and some odd miles to live here.
Spring has sprung, in so many many ways...I feel a sense of hope, I can really see that there is light, love and laughter, that the darkness is and has been rolling away. So now I must go and greet the light with a smile on my face and love in my heart.