gotta say something right about now
Okay, here's the thing. I have been avoiding mentioning a certain big happening in my life in this journal for awhile now, just because I didn't feel like talking about it. However, since I spend so much time thinking about my life, I kept getting the nagging feeling that I wasn't being completely honest, and so I decided to come clean here.
I'm going to be out of school next Monday and Tuesday because of a family issue. My dad has prostate cancer, and he is going in for surgery on Monday, so we are going to stay with him. He's going to be at Johns Hopkins, so he's in very good hands, but it's all a little scary. I've told virtually no one about this, because- well, you know me. It's one of those big changes, and I didn't want to have to deal with the fallout of telling anyone. I know, I'm a complete coward. Because I have very supportive friends who would totally get it and be there for me. But I'm extremely sensitive about these things, and sometimes the special attention just makes me feel worse. So, to warn you in advance, I thoroughly appreciate all the support you give me- but I might be a little moody about it. Just give me time.
In other news, Bush won the election last week. I could get over this a lot faster if I hadn't had an absolutely horrible day in general that Wednesday. It started out bad enough, with me panicking because I thought I had lost my copy of "House of the Spirits". We were due to have a quiz on Part 3 that morning, and if I lost my book, I was going to be completely unprepared. I was sure I'd left it in the back pocket of the seat in the car, but when I checked it wasn't there. I freaked out completely. Finally I got to school and went to my locker, where it turned up, but since I had no recollection at all of taking it there, I was still really mad at myself. Then I found out at lunch that Bush had won the election because Kerry had conceded. I don't know if I've said it before, but I don't hate Bush. He seems like a good person, he's just not the leader I would have in mind. However, with his policies on things like gay marriage and the environment, I was afraid that having him in another term could make life pretty miserable for me, since I don't agree with him at all. Finding out he'd won just made me angry. It certainly didn't help that in 5th period, my friend told me that an old "acquaintance" of mine (I didn't quite know him well enough to call him a friend) had enlisted and is in Iraq as we speak. Picture that: the president I do not support has just been reelected, because of him there is a war in Iraq, and because of that war a guy who is like a brother to me may soon be deployed, and now another person I know is there as well. I know I'm probably blowing that out of proportion, but there it is. I'm personally surprised I held it together the whole day.
Life's a little bit better now, because all the election stuff has calmed down. But obviously I'm still bitter. So please excuse the rant, and I'll be back soon, hopefully with good news on my dad. Thanks for listening.
Love Sarah
I'm going to be out of school next Monday and Tuesday because of a family issue. My dad has prostate cancer, and he is going in for surgery on Monday, so we are going to stay with him. He's going to be at Johns Hopkins, so he's in very good hands, but it's all a little scary. I've told virtually no one about this, because- well, you know me. It's one of those big changes, and I didn't want to have to deal with the fallout of telling anyone. I know, I'm a complete coward. Because I have very supportive friends who would totally get it and be there for me. But I'm extremely sensitive about these things, and sometimes the special attention just makes me feel worse. So, to warn you in advance, I thoroughly appreciate all the support you give me- but I might be a little moody about it. Just give me time.
In other news, Bush won the election last week. I could get over this a lot faster if I hadn't had an absolutely horrible day in general that Wednesday. It started out bad enough, with me panicking because I thought I had lost my copy of "House of the Spirits". We were due to have a quiz on Part 3 that morning, and if I lost my book, I was going to be completely unprepared. I was sure I'd left it in the back pocket of the seat in the car, but when I checked it wasn't there. I freaked out completely. Finally I got to school and went to my locker, where it turned up, but since I had no recollection at all of taking it there, I was still really mad at myself. Then I found out at lunch that Bush had won the election because Kerry had conceded. I don't know if I've said it before, but I don't hate Bush. He seems like a good person, he's just not the leader I would have in mind. However, with his policies on things like gay marriage and the environment, I was afraid that having him in another term could make life pretty miserable for me, since I don't agree with him at all. Finding out he'd won just made me angry. It certainly didn't help that in 5th period, my friend told me that an old "acquaintance" of mine (I didn't quite know him well enough to call him a friend) had enlisted and is in Iraq as we speak. Picture that: the president I do not support has just been reelected, because of him there is a war in Iraq, and because of that war a guy who is like a brother to me may soon be deployed, and now another person I know is there as well. I know I'm probably blowing that out of proportion, but there it is. I'm personally surprised I held it together the whole day.
Life's a little bit better now, because all the election stuff has calmed down. But obviously I'm still bitter. So please excuse the rant, and I'll be back soon, hopefully with good news on my dad. Thanks for listening.
Love Sarah