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Apparently sleep if for the weak. And I sooo want to be weak right now.
It's 5:30 am and I didn't sleep last night at all. A mix of nausea and anxiety.
Finished a book around 3 am. It was good.
Have a coffee date with a guy at lunch. I'm thinking of canceling. I would simply like to shut everything out for a really long while. But I also know that that is me being a coward. Dealing with people on a friendly level will not get easier if I don't keep trying.
Afraid to go to bed now. Won't wake up until 10. Or later. Probably easier to stay up but my brain is so fogged over it's hard to think. Stomach feels tense. Like I'm just doing everything wrong and am fail.
Maybe taking a shower will help later.
Gah, don't know.
It's 5:30 am and I didn't sleep last night at all. A mix of nausea and anxiety.
Finished a book around 3 am. It was good.
Have a coffee date with a guy at lunch. I'm thinking of canceling. I would simply like to shut everything out for a really long while. But I also know that that is me being a coward. Dealing with people on a friendly level will not get easier if I don't keep trying.
Afraid to go to bed now. Won't wake up until 10. Or later. Probably easier to stay up but my brain is so fogged over it's hard to think. Stomach feels tense. Like I'm just doing everything wrong and am fail.
Maybe taking a shower will help later.
Gah, don't know.