Killing time before class
THE PAPER IS TURNED IN AND FINISHED!!!
Now to start work on my extra credit paper to make up for the horrid grade on the test!!!*flops over*
...
after passing back the test my History teacher proceded to give us a lecture (well less than a lecture, more like advice) About how we were babied here at the community college and that we were going to have learn how to keep up with things on our own and study on our own if we plan to go to a bigger college.
I know this technically, Ive BEEN to a University and I remember how it was
But for some reason just hearing it from him ... kind of freaked me out
I'm struggling to keep up now as is
I know I have work and the bit
But honestly
If I applied myself a bit more I could pass these courses with flying colors
I have at least two or three brain cells that
I rub together to form intellegent thought.
BUT I've never tried before
EVER
I'm slowly having to build up my work ethic from the ground up
and let me say
Trying to build structure around a mind that flitters around like a butterfly is much harder than you think. Plus Im trying not to squish the damn thing.
I really need to get back on my medication
But that means going back to the docotr and paying not only $60. for the docters visit but another $60. for the medication itself
I may have to ask for help from my parents on that front >.o
then once I get the meds conserve when I need them.
Another thing that's really affecting me and I hate to admit it is my readings for my English class. I'm really glad I stayed in this class, the teacher is amazing and Me and her have been talking and really getting along well. She kinda let me pass with a B on a sub par paper ^^;;; So I luff her.
But every class we have readings. I'm one of two people that ALWAYS read what's been assigned to the class. They are very deep graphic and thought provoking. But really if I have to read one more story about rape, death, segrigation, lynching, beatings, or slavery I may curl up in a ball, cry and hug my teddy as I watch carebears (old school version biznatches!) It's really hard keeping an upbeat attitude about life when youve just been reading about a brilliant but dieing volinest kissing a womans hand, then being beaten stripped naked and lynched because he was black.
When I get out of class Im going to find some ridiculously happy kids show on youtube to watch to heal my brain o.o
Also Im am Mucho sad because I left Mizumi at home D:
he is sitting at home recharching
Luckily I did remember San so I can listen to awesome new music all day <3
Now to start work on my extra credit paper to make up for the horrid grade on the test!!!*flops over*
...
after passing back the test my History teacher proceded to give us a lecture (well less than a lecture, more like advice) About how we were babied here at the community college and that we were going to have learn how to keep up with things on our own and study on our own if we plan to go to a bigger college.
I know this technically, Ive BEEN to a University and I remember how it was
But for some reason just hearing it from him ... kind of freaked me out
I'm struggling to keep up now as is
I know I have work and the bit
But honestly
If I applied myself a bit more I could pass these courses with flying colors
I have at least two or three brain cells that
I rub together to form intellegent thought.
BUT I've never tried before
EVER
I'm slowly having to build up my work ethic from the ground up
and let me say
Trying to build structure around a mind that flitters around like a butterfly is much harder than you think. Plus Im trying not to squish the damn thing.
I really need to get back on my medication
But that means going back to the docotr and paying not only $60. for the docters visit but another $60. for the medication itself
I may have to ask for help from my parents on that front >.o
then once I get the meds conserve when I need them.
Another thing that's really affecting me and I hate to admit it is my readings for my English class. I'm really glad I stayed in this class, the teacher is amazing and Me and her have been talking and really getting along well. She kinda let me pass with a B on a sub par paper ^^;;; So I luff her.
But every class we have readings. I'm one of two people that ALWAYS read what's been assigned to the class. They are very deep graphic and thought provoking. But really if I have to read one more story about rape, death, segrigation, lynching, beatings, or slavery I may curl up in a ball, cry and hug my teddy as I watch carebears (old school version biznatches!) It's really hard keeping an upbeat attitude about life when youve just been reading about a brilliant but dieing volinest kissing a womans hand, then being beaten stripped naked and lynched because he was black.
When I get out of class Im going to find some ridiculously happy kids show on youtube to watch to heal my brain o.o
Also Im am Mucho sad because I left Mizumi at home D:
he is sitting at home recharching
Luckily I did remember San so I can listen to awesome new music all day <3