I'm smiling because your walking over where I buried the bodies

Mar 06, 2009 10:45

Mixed day

So where are all my peeps at? o-0
No ones even really posted that much over the past few days
It makes an adicct like me sad XD

O failed once again this morning
Really did wake up at 6:30 after going to bed at tweleve
was so proud I deceded to get a bit more sleep
well at 7:50 I leapt out of bed, rushed to put my cloths on and get the bit up and going *sigh* late to class again


Yesterday I mentioned he called
Forgot to say that that was one of 6 voicemails he left me
He's calle me about 8 times
And then he tried to call me early while I was in class
Spent the next hour or so trying to wrestle my anger back down
Yesterday about the 4th time he called I was in my car
and I turned my radio all the way up and simply held the phone there
This of course was monumentaly stupid
While most men would get the hint when a girl curses them out
and calls them every name under the sun
He see's this as a sign Im talking to him
He didn't even hang up the phone the entire song
Now Im tempted to get one of my freinds to answer the phone and tell him I sold my phone
Talked with one of my Co-Workers today about Single parenthood
while I was fuming and angry over Wayne
She understood why I didn't want to talk to him
But breifly just mentioned her own resentment toward her Dad for not seeing her Mom

I know I have to prepare myself for this
Becuase If I'm caught blind sided by it it could be bad
But ... kind of brought it home

As is I can't even hear Wayne's voice without feeling a surg of anger and resentment
How Am I supposed to let him visit my child without getting into an argument?

Sex Machinguns's Song Reach for the sky Always manages to cheer me up
It makes me really sad that not only do they not have it translited in English
They dont have it ANYWHERE that I can find :/
*saddnes*

I'm going to try and go out today
Bring the bit to a concert
Though I dont really know what Im doing
If the music is to loud Ill have leave ... *sigh*

P.S. Oh how I LOVE this geeky geeky man XD
http://ameblo.jp/kamijiyusuke/page-3.html#main

fail, the ex

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