Dec 28, 2009 18:10
Stop moping. Stop doing your head in. Stop fucking yourself up. Stop crying at night. Stop letting yourself go. Stop being afraid. Stop yelling over nothing. Stop being miserable.
Start moving. Start edifying yourself. Start working for yourself. Start breathing deeply. Start speaking clearly. Start eating well. Start making friends. Start making plans. Start empowering yourself.
Spend more time outside. Spend more energy on other people. Spend less time online. Spend less money on stupid crap.
Accept that you're turning into your mother. Accept that you won't make money from the things you love. Accept that you can't paint (and paint anyway). Accept that you live here. Accept that this is your body, and your mind, and you can't swap either one.
Stay busy. Stay in the moment. Stay awake. Stay away from the Internet.
Make art. Make progress. Make time. Make allowances.
Forget that it's too cold to go for a walk. Forget how family members wronged you in the past. Forget everything you've taught yourself, so you can learn it all again.
Now.