my late night ramble
well, after a long weekend/wed night-sat at the douglas house in nashville... i don't know where to go with that sentence :p but, i think i've had an epiphany... wanna know?!
--> well, it kinda hit me as i was lying in bed that i moreso miss the friendship with casey then i actually miss the relationship. (we were more friends than anything) and then i asked myself if i really loved him...and i'm pretty sure that i loved the idea of him then him. don't take that the wrong way, i love him to death, but not the way i thought i did. i don't think i've ever really been in love. i thought so about 2yrs ago, but that was way off... and i thought so now, but once again fate proved me wrong... i love him, because he was my best friend not my boyfriend. i would love for him to keep in touch, but i don't think either one of us really are going to keep in touch...kinda sad to say really, but life goes on. :)
ok, so i had a blast in nashville! let me tell you about it.
*wednesday night when we got back (around 2am) we all kinda goofed off a bit, ken and jen passed out, charlie and i watched a movie and stayed up chatting until about 7am. his gf (Kayce) just broke up with him after a yr, so we kinda chatted about the casey(kayce)s.
*thursday of course we all slept until after noon...then after lounging around all afternoon we decided that they would take me downtown (b.day)--- SO FUN! We went to Graham central and hung out on the roof listening to a local band... walked across this HUGE bridge overlooking like ALL of downtown... saw where dancing in the district happens, walked the streets of downtown... passed a MOVIE STAR!! (the guy that plays lars--crazy musician--in seredipity AND ayden on sex and the city~~totally cool!) umm, charlie bought me a rose from a homeless person. jen and i got some chocolate ice cream, mine dripped down my leg, pretty funny. i'm majorly shortening this...went back to the house, chatted... crashed...
*friday i was supposed to go home... we all slept until afternoon again... ken had band practice that night..(eloquist is his band) jen had to work... i babysat my nephew paydon (7months) ken and charlie came back around 11, we ordered pizza and crashed...
*saturday we got up and realized we were locked outta the car... stuck. called a locksmith, got in the car... jen went to work... we came here... ate spaghetti with ken's parents. came home... hung out here a bit, guys left... then, i got a call to help em with a secret mission :p it was awesome!! they're still in the process and i'm wondering (phones died) but anyway... so, i had a blast in nashville
got home... talked to everyone... they shopped today... they crashed... i continued my mission... and that brings me to now... 1:44am... sunday, september 18th. i am 20 good night/morning all
--> well, it kinda hit me as i was lying in bed that i moreso miss the friendship with casey then i actually miss the relationship. (we were more friends than anything) and then i asked myself if i really loved him...and i'm pretty sure that i loved the idea of him then him. don't take that the wrong way, i love him to death, but not the way i thought i did. i don't think i've ever really been in love. i thought so about 2yrs ago, but that was way off... and i thought so now, but once again fate proved me wrong... i love him, because he was my best friend not my boyfriend. i would love for him to keep in touch, but i don't think either one of us really are going to keep in touch...kinda sad to say really, but life goes on. :)
ok, so i had a blast in nashville! let me tell you about it.
*wednesday night when we got back (around 2am) we all kinda goofed off a bit, ken and jen passed out, charlie and i watched a movie and stayed up chatting until about 7am. his gf (Kayce) just broke up with him after a yr, so we kinda chatted about the casey(kayce)s.
*thursday of course we all slept until after noon...then after lounging around all afternoon we decided that they would take me downtown (b.day)--- SO FUN! We went to Graham central and hung out on the roof listening to a local band... walked across this HUGE bridge overlooking like ALL of downtown... saw where dancing in the district happens, walked the streets of downtown... passed a MOVIE STAR!! (the guy that plays lars--crazy musician--in seredipity AND ayden on sex and the city~~totally cool!) umm, charlie bought me a rose from a homeless person. jen and i got some chocolate ice cream, mine dripped down my leg, pretty funny. i'm majorly shortening this...went back to the house, chatted... crashed...
*friday i was supposed to go home... we all slept until afternoon again... ken had band practice that night..(eloquist is his band) jen had to work... i babysat my nephew paydon (7months) ken and charlie came back around 11, we ordered pizza and crashed...
*saturday we got up and realized we were locked outta the car... stuck. called a locksmith, got in the car... jen went to work... we came here... ate spaghetti with ken's parents. came home... hung out here a bit, guys left... then, i got a call to help em with a secret mission :p it was awesome!! they're still in the process and i'm wondering (phones died) but anyway... so, i had a blast in nashville
got home... talked to everyone... they shopped today... they crashed... i continued my mission... and that brings me to now... 1:44am... sunday, september 18th. i am 20 good night/morning all