edwin's rant
Rant Time!
Dammit! After every hang out these days, I feel pretty down and unfulfilled. Why? Well, I'm going to say it's because of Scott being in San Francisco. The Tevis/Scott/Nick/Edwin fusion is great, but otherwise, it's just damn annoying. Not only is this getting to his head big time, he flaunts it around to whoever he talks to. Even after the very, very, very first meeting, after that Japantown visit, he's been calling people, telling them how he already had a girlfriend. Yes, from that day until now. It's been a LOOOOOOOONG TIME of this nonsense.
Why's it especially a problem? Mostly because he's a fucking flip-flop and changes personalities as if they were fishing bait. One of his most annoying traits: Arrogance. Ok, so he's not Jari arrogant, but he's still fucking crazy. Not only is he obsessive, perverse, and possessive, but he's very arrogant. He ALWAYS has to try and one-up people, even when they're not competing. Ok, no offense, but I'm not into you guys like that. That's not what I'm looking for in this relationship. But he feels the need to compete as if I was actually trying. But it's like, "Hey asshole! They were my friends before your fucking girlfriend. Just something you should remember." Because he sometimes acts as if I never was part of this group. He acts as if *I'm* the one who was introduced. He forgets that without me, he'd still be living day by day, his shitty life of trying to hit on all girls possible until one of them takes it the wrong way and thinks he's serious (no offense, but that's what he did and still does) before he actually tries. There was not a single girl in high school, even lower grades that he did not force himself onto.
He's changed for the worse. He's extremely annoying to talk to now because he's so desperate to keep something that is proof of his "success" of a guess-and-check relationship for a few years. I don't know why he gets so upset at me when I talk about his bad qualities. Should I just wait and let it surprise everyone? Is he just going to hide his outer lifestyle? He just tries to pass everything off as a bad joke, but I'm tired of his bullshit. He does everything to feed his own damn ego so that he can be happy for himself.
He's also so fucking bad with dealing with these hang-outs too. I DON'T KNOW, BUT I THINK FRIEND HANG-OUTS KIND OF SHOULD STAY IN FRIEND ZONE. But some asshole has to try and be super intimate at the wrong times and make everything really awkward. It's like, "HEY! Kind of forgot that we're still here on our supposed hang-out. It's not your date night, so what the fuck do you think you're doing by splitting half the group up because of your own selfish desires and inappropriate timing??
I didn't know that something like this could take him on such a fucking ego trip. When it's three or four people hanging out, why the hell is it a good idea to just start getting all touchy and stuff? Hey! Maybe having an audience of your fucking friends during a hang-out is a nice thing to have. I don't like pretending to not notice stuff that happens next to me or right in my face. That's why I was trying to change the subject to being very general to the group, but some asshole needs to keep it there for himself so that we continue sitting there feeling like we're in the way.
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Shit! I'm still tired today. I'll finish complaining when I sleep and think more clearly.
Dammit! After every hang out these days, I feel pretty down and unfulfilled. Why? Well, I'm going to say it's because of Scott being in San Francisco. The Tevis/Scott/Nick/Edwin fusion is great, but otherwise, it's just damn annoying. Not only is this getting to his head big time, he flaunts it around to whoever he talks to. Even after the very, very, very first meeting, after that Japantown visit, he's been calling people, telling them how he already had a girlfriend. Yes, from that day until now. It's been a LOOOOOOOONG TIME of this nonsense.
Why's it especially a problem? Mostly because he's a fucking flip-flop and changes personalities as if they were fishing bait. One of his most annoying traits: Arrogance. Ok, so he's not Jari arrogant, but he's still fucking crazy. Not only is he obsessive, perverse, and possessive, but he's very arrogant. He ALWAYS has to try and one-up people, even when they're not competing. Ok, no offense, but I'm not into you guys like that. That's not what I'm looking for in this relationship. But he feels the need to compete as if I was actually trying. But it's like, "Hey asshole! They were my friends before your fucking girlfriend. Just something you should remember." Because he sometimes acts as if I never was part of this group. He acts as if *I'm* the one who was introduced. He forgets that without me, he'd still be living day by day, his shitty life of trying to hit on all girls possible until one of them takes it the wrong way and thinks he's serious (no offense, but that's what he did and still does) before he actually tries. There was not a single girl in high school, even lower grades that he did not force himself onto.
He's changed for the worse. He's extremely annoying to talk to now because he's so desperate to keep something that is proof of his "success" of a guess-and-check relationship for a few years. I don't know why he gets so upset at me when I talk about his bad qualities. Should I just wait and let it surprise everyone? Is he just going to hide his outer lifestyle? He just tries to pass everything off as a bad joke, but I'm tired of his bullshit. He does everything to feed his own damn ego so that he can be happy for himself.
He's also so fucking bad with dealing with these hang-outs too. I DON'T KNOW, BUT I THINK FRIEND HANG-OUTS KIND OF SHOULD STAY IN FRIEND ZONE. But some asshole has to try and be super intimate at the wrong times and make everything really awkward. It's like, "HEY! Kind of forgot that we're still here on our supposed hang-out. It's not your date night, so what the fuck do you think you're doing by splitting half the group up because of your own selfish desires and inappropriate timing??
I didn't know that something like this could take him on such a fucking ego trip. When it's three or four people hanging out, why the hell is it a good idea to just start getting all touchy and stuff? Hey! Maybe having an audience of your fucking friends during a hang-out is a nice thing to have. I don't like pretending to not notice stuff that happens next to me or right in my face. That's why I was trying to change the subject to being very general to the group, but some asshole needs to keep it there for himself so that we continue sitting there feeling like we're in the way.
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Shit! I'm still tired today. I'll finish complaining when I sleep and think more clearly.