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February seems to be going pretty fast.
I turn 17 next week, I tend not to get too excited about birthdays so I guess it's not really a big deal, though people keep asking me what I want to do for it and I can't seem to come with an answer that pleases them. Ideally I'd like to ignore it.
My dad is bugging to get my provisional licence, so he can get me lessons as soon as possible. That will be kind of cool, apart from the idea of myself being in charge of a car scares me. It all looks so complicated! But if I did learn to drive it would give me lots of independence and I could go and visit places (I really really want to go and visit Nick Drake's grave, it's not too far away from me, but far enough that I couldn't ask anyone to take me) and do more things because right now I'm sort of stuck doing nothing in this stupid little town.
I hate this place so much. Nothings here for me, apart from my family, which sort of bothers me because when I can finally get away from this place will I even do it? I might not because I'm too damn dependent on my folks, and I'd miss the whole family so much.
I want to run away to New York, I honestly think so many amazing things could happen to me there, but maybe that's just a stupid teenage dream of mine.
My Mom keeps asking me what I want to do next year at college, though I can't decide. I'm torn between art and photography or media and photography. I'm not very good at art at all, but I have been enjoying it a lot lately, but with the media it's something that I can actually do quite decently. So maybe the latter would be best, I could always do art the following year if I really wanted to.
In other news; i've become addicted to baking.