Hi Billy...
anonymous
January 18 2004, 17:57:50 UTC
Good luck with the prom. If you do go have a great time! I didn't go to my junior prom because I was scheduled to work and I'm not going to the prom senior year either. Nice memory to have I guess but it's so expensive and such a ridiculous social event for the high school cliques. I don't think I'll ever regret not attending my own but I'm happy for those who did go and had a good time, even though they spent big bucks to turn themselves into people they really aren't for one night. Geesh, suits & ties, tuxes, prom dresses, hair-do's, make-up, manicures, pedicures, jewelry, tickets, limo's, pictures, etc., etc. There's only a few people in my high school I even want to remain in contact with after graduation, the rest of the class can go to hell as far as I'm concerned. They didn't do me any favors over the past 4 years, that's for sure. I won't be attending any reunions in the future either. I've been saving for the used PT Cruiser and will be picking the keys up and the car on March 1st. I've been scrimping and saving for over 2 years and can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm at my Dad's this weekend but he's out drinking with his buddies and won't be home till late. Tomorrow will be screwed to because he'll have another hangover and won't want to be disturbed. I go back to Natick tomorrow night and will miss classes on Monday. Not my fault but I'll still have hell to pay for not being there. My Mom gets really ticked when that happens but she can't come and get me and my Dad can't take me home so not much I can do about it. When I have my own car this won't happen. Doesn't look like I'll be college bound in September, the places I applied to didn't accept me. The places I can get in are one's I don't want to attend. Catch 22 - between a rock and a hard place. I was really bummed about that this past month but decided I'll work full time once I graduate and save for tuition. My folks can't help me out financially and I don't have the brains of a rocket scientist to be granted any scholarships to get a free ride. Anyway, I'll start applying again in 2005 and take a year off to earn the cash to afford it. My Dad said they hire people everywhere on the Cape in the summer so he wants me to stay here and work instead of work in Natick. I think he's just trying to tick my Mom off by suggesting that, but, anyway, I'm checking out rooms for rent so I can have a place to stay on Cape. My Dad thinks I'm crazy spending cash for a place when I can live with him for free, but, I don't want to live here with him. He drinks to much. That's why my parents divorced. Well, partially, there were a lot of other reasons to. I had two brothers, one died, my big brother, so now it's just me and my younger brother. That happened in 1992 and started the ball rolling toward my folks splitting up. He didn't die accidentally, it was intentional, and the stigma of suicide started my Dad's alcoholism. Between burying my brother, battling with booze, and other bullshit, my parents just couldn't function together any longer. I'm 19, my little brother is 14. I am still trying to get some 'code' that would allow me to have my own Live journal but I don't know anyone. Anyway, I don't know if you read this thing or not, but it was nice having something to do for a little while by writing in here instead of just walking around the house and feeling pretty lonely for some reason. Good luck at the prom and with your music, Billy. Take Care*** ~Michelle Brianna~ (Natick)
~Michelle Brianna~ (Natick)
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