Light Fixtures (Or The Mind Of Someone With Frequent Suicidal Idealization)

[sadpenguin]

You see my smiling
You love to see me smiling
i'm hanging from light fixtures
lighting up the intersection
of where fantasy meets my reality
i'm smiling because im dying
Eyes closed
Wind in my hair
i'm dying, dear
i'm dying, dear

You see my smile
You love to see my smile
i could be falling
hard
Onto the road below
Or the bay
i could be driving
Into walls
Or into oceans
i could have a gun to my head
or perhaps down my throat
i'm smiling, my dear
because i'm dying, dear