Fuck This...
Why don't Christians get me?
I don't get it. I want to be in community with Christians, but they just don't understnad my quirks, personality...anything.
For about a year now, I've been following two different lines of thought. 1) That I, not "Christians" in general, am to blame, and that, in fact, I don't get them, not the other way around. But that seems incredibly stupid to lump all of a group into one unit that can or cannot be understood as such. So this lead to 2) That I just have not found Christians yet who understand me. This seems more plausible, but just has not panned out AT ALL. However, this makes me think that there is something fundamental about Christians that makes them repel from me, thus taking me back to the conclusion that I originally found so stupid: that they ARE, indeed, a group of people that can be judged as a unit, having the certain characteristic of not understanding Pauls.
I am confused. I long to "keep the faith", but find it incredibly hard to do when the only people who understand me, and there for make up such people as my friends and would-be girlfriend, do not share that which should be most precious to me: my faith. Very frustrating...very frustrating, indeed.
AAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!
I don't get it. I want to be in community with Christians, but they just don't understnad my quirks, personality...anything.
For about a year now, I've been following two different lines of thought. 1) That I, not "Christians" in general, am to blame, and that, in fact, I don't get them, not the other way around. But that seems incredibly stupid to lump all of a group into one unit that can or cannot be understood as such. So this lead to 2) That I just have not found Christians yet who understand me. This seems more plausible, but just has not panned out AT ALL. However, this makes me think that there is something fundamental about Christians that makes them repel from me, thus taking me back to the conclusion that I originally found so stupid: that they ARE, indeed, a group of people that can be judged as a unit, having the certain characteristic of not understanding Pauls.
I am confused. I long to "keep the faith", but find it incredibly hard to do when the only people who understand me, and there for make up such people as my friends and would-be girlfriend, do not share that which should be most precious to me: my faith. Very frustrating...very frustrating, indeed.
AAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!