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71 months
In a month it's going to be 6 years. SIX fricken years. Hard to believe really... I remember this month 6 years ago like it was yesterday-- the ICU time, dad deteriorating... really sad.
I still can't look at that hospital without feeling anger and hatred.
I'm trying in my life but not hard enough in bettering myself.
I wish dad were here but wishing won't make things different.
This year, we're probably not going to hold a memorial service like the previous five years which makes me glad yet somewhat sad at the same time....It's taxing in strength to go through planning and it makes me really down. And down I am but certainly in some ways, i'm searching for *bit* of happiness too in life.
Hard to believe how times fly.
Yet Dad's always in my heart and i miss him so much.
In a month it's going to be 6 years. SIX fricken years. Hard to believe really... I remember this month 6 years ago like it was yesterday-- the ICU time, dad deteriorating... really sad.
I still can't look at that hospital without feeling anger and hatred.
I'm trying in my life but not hard enough in bettering myself.
I wish dad were here but wishing won't make things different.
This year, we're probably not going to hold a memorial service like the previous five years which makes me glad yet somewhat sad at the same time....It's taxing in strength to go through planning and it makes me really down. And down I am but certainly in some ways, i'm searching for *bit* of happiness too in life.
Hard to believe how times fly.
Yet Dad's always in my heart and i miss him so much.