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All I know is im sitting here carving deep into my flesh to get you to notice me. Is that really such a good way to prove love? Or maybe its the being of my exsistence that bothers you. I think I feel too deep. I dug my own hole and then accidently leaped in. Im caught between love and lies. Whats easier to believe? These shapes symbolize my heart. But they just happend to be cut down the middle. And I wish I could somehow get to you. Tell you how every minute with out you.. my life... is slowly pushing me towards intentional death. Your teeth are as white as the pillow your head lies apon as you smirk in your sleep. Buts its funny how somethings always look like more than what they really are from far away. This isnt something difficult to understand. But its tough to get caught up in. Just destroy me. Push me off that cliff I stood before in your nightmare you told me about. And at this very moment in time.. the choice is yours. So here I kneel, Before the edge of temptation. Im on my knees, Arms spread as far as angels wings. Cut off my circulation to the world. ..To you. So here I am. Soaring faster and faster through the air. I look so pretty with arms spread wide and tears in my eyes. You race down the cliff in your car. Just so you can see my face right as it hits the ground. Im on the ground. Im heart is bleeding before you. The only sympathy you show is turning your head and never looking back again.