the shit has hit the fan
so, as some of you know, somebody has hacked into my myspace, photobucket, and my secret xanga. yea, i had a private journal that only tiffany had access to, since i talked to her about everything anyway, i trusted her. everything in this journal were my private thoughts. most everything was written out of anger or depression. this unknown hacker [though i suspect its somebody i know] made all of these entries public and proceeded to send a copy of all of these entries to paulina between the 4th and 5th...
a good chunk of my entires were me venting and ripping certain people apart. one i focused on was paulina. she was my best friend, yes, but even best friends piss you off. when i held things in, i would let them out in my journal so that i wouldnt explode. i wrote really horrible things, but they were out of spite. some were truthful, but the truth was twisted by my anger and hatered. things had gotten steadily worse between us, through the months of miscommunication, seperation, fights, lies, ect. finally, on tiffs birthday, i tihnk the breaking point was reached. we had not even talked since then. i seen her a few times, tried to make amends once, and i felt my effort were ignored. so, i was not alright, we still had issues, but it seems to me she had no interest in fixing things. so i said nothing to her, since i saw no point in it. on the 5th, i had planned on calling paulina and asking her to get a cup of coffee. i wanted us to not have issues. i dont think best friends is an option, but i dont want to be enemies, i want us to be able to say "hi" and be alright. as of yesterday, i dont know if this is even possible. im angry, im sad, im frustrated and confused. im at a loss, with no idea with what is the right course of action.
damn
a good chunk of my entires were me venting and ripping certain people apart. one i focused on was paulina. she was my best friend, yes, but even best friends piss you off. when i held things in, i would let them out in my journal so that i wouldnt explode. i wrote really horrible things, but they were out of spite. some were truthful, but the truth was twisted by my anger and hatered. things had gotten steadily worse between us, through the months of miscommunication, seperation, fights, lies, ect. finally, on tiffs birthday, i tihnk the breaking point was reached. we had not even talked since then. i seen her a few times, tried to make amends once, and i felt my effort were ignored. so, i was not alright, we still had issues, but it seems to me she had no interest in fixing things. so i said nothing to her, since i saw no point in it. on the 5th, i had planned on calling paulina and asking her to get a cup of coffee. i wanted us to not have issues. i dont think best friends is an option, but i dont want to be enemies, i want us to be able to say "hi" and be alright. as of yesterday, i dont know if this is even possible. im angry, im sad, im frustrated and confused. im at a loss, with no idea with what is the right course of action.
damn