(no subject)
my dad came in the room after i posted
i asked him why he wasnt at work
i thought he had to work today
he ignored me though and he looked at the computer screen; squinting
i could smell the whiskey on his breath
"livejournal!" he said "i've heard about that!
would you like to know what i heard?"
"no" i said
"well i'm going to tell you anyway
i heard that it was for faggots! are you a faggot, boy?"
"no" i said "i'm not"
he seemed to consider this
i wondered how hard his slowed simian brain
would have to work to understand
finally
"then how come you dont ever bring any girls to the house?"
what am i supposed to say to that
because
im a loser?
because
no one likes me?
so i said nothing and he laughed
stumbling into my bed as he left out the door
i wish
my mom never remarried
or at least
she read the disclaimer first
i asked him why he wasnt at work
i thought he had to work today
he ignored me though and he looked at the computer screen; squinting
i could smell the whiskey on his breath
"livejournal!" he said "i've heard about that!
would you like to know what i heard?"
"no" i said
"well i'm going to tell you anyway
i heard that it was for faggots! are you a faggot, boy?"
"no" i said "i'm not"
he seemed to consider this
i wondered how hard his slowed simian brain
would have to work to understand
finally
"then how come you dont ever bring any girls to the house?"
what am i supposed to say to that
because
im a loser?
because
no one likes me?
so i said nothing and he laughed
stumbling into my bed as he left out the door
i wish
my mom never remarried
or at least
she read the disclaimer first