Could these days go by any slower
I'm so ready for the next couple weeks to be over.
There are so many things to be done this month and at this moment all I can do is sit around and wait.
I'm gonna lose my mind.
I'm so excited for the end of the month/beginning of the year.
I love you guys here but yall are making me crazy.
I am more than ready to get out of here, even just for a few days.
And I'm so... nervous but anxious to see how I'm going to handle going somewhere by myself.
Not depending on people to take me back and forth.
Now having to do things under their conditions.
Not having to change my plans to better fit theirs.
For once I get to go on a trip where all my plans aren't compromised because the person/people who are taking me want to stop every 30 minutes to smoke or wait around for 3 hours so they can have company on the way back.
In those times when that happened I couldn't complain about it because I was making them go out of their way for me.
I am still grateful that they did that for me.
I know it was just as stressful and inconvenient for them as well as for me.
But this time it's all on me.
I'm glad in those ways but at the same time it's like... I'm gonna be by myself.
I have to keep myself alert the whole time.
I have to make all the decisions by myself.
If something suddenly happens or something changes or goes wrong, it's completely on me to react or decide what to do.
This is new to me, this isn't something I've had to deal with before so it's a little stressful.
I don't want to be like super excited and then get out there and I'm like Oh crap what do I do? I didn't really prepare myself for this.
I dunno.
Basically, things need to start happening.
This anticipation is killing me.
There are so many things to be done this month and at this moment all I can do is sit around and wait.
I'm gonna lose my mind.
I'm so excited for the end of the month/beginning of the year.
I love you guys here but yall are making me crazy.
I am more than ready to get out of here, even just for a few days.
And I'm so... nervous but anxious to see how I'm going to handle going somewhere by myself.
Not depending on people to take me back and forth.
Now having to do things under their conditions.
Not having to change my plans to better fit theirs.
For once I get to go on a trip where all my plans aren't compromised because the person/people who are taking me want to stop every 30 minutes to smoke or wait around for 3 hours so they can have company on the way back.
In those times when that happened I couldn't complain about it because I was making them go out of their way for me.
I am still grateful that they did that for me.
I know it was just as stressful and inconvenient for them as well as for me.
But this time it's all on me.
I'm glad in those ways but at the same time it's like... I'm gonna be by myself.
I have to keep myself alert the whole time.
I have to make all the decisions by myself.
If something suddenly happens or something changes or goes wrong, it's completely on me to react or decide what to do.
This is new to me, this isn't something I've had to deal with before so it's a little stressful.
I don't want to be like super excited and then get out there and I'm like Oh crap what do I do? I didn't really prepare myself for this.
I dunno.
Basically, things need to start happening.
This anticipation is killing me.