So frustrated
I have so much inside me that I just want to get out and can't.
I express myself in an artistic way but I'm not good at anything artistic.
I can't draw anymore.
I can't sing.
I can't play any instruments.
I can't dance.
I don't have a camcorder.
I don't have a good camera.
And even if I did there is only so much I can do with myself. I need someone else to take pictures of me or someone else to take pictures of.
I really wish my parents had pushed me to do something creative when I was young.
Their excuse is they didn't have the money for ballet or instruments/lessons.
I dropped out of chorus and it was just whatever.
My dad can draw and he never tried to teach me.
I got books the last two years of (home)school that were supposed to teach me photography but I'm pretty sure you need a camera too.
I use to write alot but I was discouraged from doing that because it was all poems or short stories named things like "I do not want this anymore", "Last regret", "I am nothing", "Animosity of life". You know, typical depressed teenager stuff.
I think my favorite of all is film.
You can put everything into film.
Images. Dance. Music. Poetry.
All at the same time.
I really need to get into that.
I express myself in an artistic way but I'm not good at anything artistic.
I can't draw anymore.
I can't sing.
I can't play any instruments.
I can't dance.
I don't have a camcorder.
I don't have a good camera.
And even if I did there is only so much I can do with myself. I need someone else to take pictures of me or someone else to take pictures of.
I really wish my parents had pushed me to do something creative when I was young.
Their excuse is they didn't have the money for ballet or instruments/lessons.
I dropped out of chorus and it was just whatever.
My dad can draw and he never tried to teach me.
I got books the last two years of (home)school that were supposed to teach me photography but I'm pretty sure you need a camera too.
I use to write alot but I was discouraged from doing that because it was all poems or short stories named things like "I do not want this anymore", "Last regret", "I am nothing", "Animosity of life". You know, typical depressed teenager stuff.
I think my favorite of all is film.
You can put everything into film.
Images. Dance. Music. Poetry.
All at the same time.
I really need to get into that.