gah! fuck you rain!
i hate this fucking rain. i hate it! now, anyone who knows me knows that i love the rain, but it's got me in this unshakable funk. it's pissing me off. i listened to penfold about ten times and now i've got maserati on repeat and i'm sitting here like a total emo fucking dink crying. i love this time of year, i really do, but for some reason today i'm just a fucking mess. maybe i should get drunk tonight. if the kids weren't coming home today i would be drunk already. fuck. i hate feeling like this. it's stupid. i know how senseless it is, but i can't help myself. aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrgh! someone slap me. or something.