News and musings...
Ate kashi cereal yesterday....could only manage 1/2 cup. When it gets through my system I'm sure it'll be a colon blow. Why that line cracks me up as it does is beyond me! LOL...
Not playing wiht g tonight after all. Shrink says I have to walk if I wnat to get to the bottom of what's making me so unhappy. I'm covering up the crappy, neglectful childhood I had with dominance over a submissive on a part time basis. As stated before, once I know WHAT my addiction is covering up, I can quit. I haven't played since last October....(last time I saw Stan). It's been a year and the day I realized I didn't need the scene, I got rid of a lot of toys, but I won't get rid of my 3' whip. I love that thing! The rest I don't need anymore. I gotta figure out what to do with the bullwhip I have. Looks like the gothchick will be doing some Ebay posting for me. Maybe I should have a flea market of my own!
So now I start the journey to understand my inner Me for real. I'm looking forward to this adventure. :D I need to stop the shopping and shoe fetishes. I seem to have conquered the baking thing, and my shrink is bummin that I no longer bring things in. Hello? Can we say ENABLER? So we'll see how that goes.
On second thought, maybe I'll give g the bullwhip...and throw the rest of the things in the toybag out. Whatever...I'm toying with the idea of telling my sister too. LOL...I'll have to film her reaction. Replay it for a good laugh.
Certainly have some thinks to think about!
Not playing wiht g tonight after all. Shrink says I have to walk if I wnat to get to the bottom of what's making me so unhappy. I'm covering up the crappy, neglectful childhood I had with dominance over a submissive on a part time basis. As stated before, once I know WHAT my addiction is covering up, I can quit. I haven't played since last October....(last time I saw Stan). It's been a year and the day I realized I didn't need the scene, I got rid of a lot of toys, but I won't get rid of my 3' whip. I love that thing! The rest I don't need anymore. I gotta figure out what to do with the bullwhip I have. Looks like the gothchick will be doing some Ebay posting for me. Maybe I should have a flea market of my own!
So now I start the journey to understand my inner Me for real. I'm looking forward to this adventure. :D I need to stop the shopping and shoe fetishes. I seem to have conquered the baking thing, and my shrink is bummin that I no longer bring things in. Hello? Can we say ENABLER? So we'll see how that goes.
On second thought, maybe I'll give g the bullwhip...and throw the rest of the things in the toybag out. Whatever...I'm toying with the idea of telling my sister too. LOL...I'll have to film her reaction. Replay it for a good laugh.
Certainly have some thinks to think about!