Updates on my life
Updates coming up:
One of my classmates is leaving school because he got expelled over some reason which I personally think is a load of bullshit. We had a party as a show of defiance. There are supposed to be pictures which I still have not not uploaded taken on my handphone. The reason being that I can't find the energy to do despite having nothing to do with the exception of holiday homework and revision, it being the June holidays. I think that I'm suffering from burn out. Additionally I have doubts about being able to pass the A levels this year especially for the subject of economics. Argh...just thinking about it makes me want to bury myself into a hole and not come out for the rest of eternity.
I was suffering form stomach cramps yesterday morning and puked out bile. Trust me not the nicest of experiences. Especially when the pain causes my over active imagination to run to scenarios that scare me shitless. I didn't want to wake my mom who was sleeping in the bed next to mine, knowing that she needed her sleep more than me. Additionally telling her would make me feel like a burden even though I don't think that she sees me as one. Well I can't help the way I feel. Have not ever really felt that I was a part of the family.(possibly due to the fact that i was a VOID for a long period of time). During my more depressing periods, I like to think that they will be better off without me having been born. Don't really know why the hell I'm typing all these thoughts usually kept hidden in my mind out now in the middle of the night. Alrighty, on to my social life or lack thereof :)
Well, what did I do that was actually noteworthy this month? Well I met Ashie and her friend Nao, who is a fan of J-rock and introduced me to that genre of music. We took neoprints and generally had an enjoyable time. Charlene and Hafiza had a falling out leaving me in the middle. That experience took me back to being the role of peace keeper in the group again. Not a pleasant role I tell you. Hmm... I also met Slayer and we were discussing about .....Economics...with him the subject seems to be more approachable. well that's about it, I will probably update when i need to let of steam or just rant.
P.S : This journal is not known to anyone in my family at least not the actual site and name. Wonder what their reactions will be if they read it? Oh and I got a B for project work if anyone is interested to know. :)
One of my classmates is leaving school because he got expelled over some reason which I personally think is a load of bullshit. We had a party as a show of defiance. There are supposed to be pictures which I still have not not uploaded taken on my handphone. The reason being that I can't find the energy to do despite having nothing to do with the exception of holiday homework and revision, it being the June holidays. I think that I'm suffering from burn out. Additionally I have doubts about being able to pass the A levels this year especially for the subject of economics. Argh...just thinking about it makes me want to bury myself into a hole and not come out for the rest of eternity.
I was suffering form stomach cramps yesterday morning and puked out bile. Trust me not the nicest of experiences. Especially when the pain causes my over active imagination to run to scenarios that scare me shitless. I didn't want to wake my mom who was sleeping in the bed next to mine, knowing that she needed her sleep more than me. Additionally telling her would make me feel like a burden even though I don't think that she sees me as one. Well I can't help the way I feel. Have not ever really felt that I was a part of the family.(possibly due to the fact that i was a VOID for a long period of time). During my more depressing periods, I like to think that they will be better off without me having been born. Don't really know why the hell I'm typing all these thoughts usually kept hidden in my mind out now in the middle of the night. Alrighty, on to my social life or lack thereof :)
Well, what did I do that was actually noteworthy this month? Well I met Ashie and her friend Nao, who is a fan of J-rock and introduced me to that genre of music. We took neoprints and generally had an enjoyable time. Charlene and Hafiza had a falling out leaving me in the middle. That experience took me back to being the role of peace keeper in the group again. Not a pleasant role I tell you. Hmm... I also met Slayer and we were discussing about .....Economics...with him the subject seems to be more approachable. well that's about it, I will probably update when i need to let of steam or just rant.
P.S : This journal is not known to anyone in my family at least not the actual site and name. Wonder what their reactions will be if they read it? Oh and I got a B for project work if anyone is interested to know. :)