Random Thoughts
I wonder if I should start off with the customary salutation or not...it seems that no one really reads my entries for this journal.
I think it is because 1)I don't update often 2) most of my private thoughts ie. the super personal entries are private and for my eyes only. Like Ahsie says, I don't blab online and her paranoia about her online activities are justifiable and more than mine. I wonder why? I think it is because I am generally speaking a very private individual? Most of thoughts are mine because I don't voice them out. My thoughts are a reflection of my mood and thought processes and I don't like to reveal myself easily to people. This is why I don't often blab online and may be the main reason why i'm a silent stalker on most fanfic sites XD On the other hand I have a tech savvy brother who can easily track my doings online so that makes me paranoid LOL Not that he will but his ability in this area makes me wary.
I have been on holiday since the 7th of May 2010 and have don't nothing productive with my time. I was thinking of looking for a job but i don't feel up to the rigour of working life, I have tried it once as a retail sales assistant and it has taught me much. I have learnt to control my infamous temper and learnt patience (according to my family). But the downside is the stress and loneliness that comes with it especially since i joined without any of my friends. While it is true that I may be able to make new friends, it just does not feel the same because for me friends are someone you should be able to trust and allow them to lean on you and vice versa but workplace colleagues are different, the situation is different, the setting is different, they are there to earn money, you may or may not be used as a pawn in office politics and I can't trust work colleagues easily because I feel that if they betray my trust, our professional relationship will go to hell. Sure I do get to make good friends but they are few and far between. It doesn't help that i take some time to warm up to people and that i come across as stuck up >x< thus making me unapproachable and hated on sight.....
Oh well some good things have happened, I went on a trip to south Korea, Seoul and it was quite fun :D and I finally have permission from my mom to learn driving XD after like 3 years... I behaved like a headless chicken with Ahsie while we were picking up her YOG uniform :D that was a psychotic and fun day :D and I donated blood for the second time of my life :D I was joking with L that I should make it a tradition to go and donate blood every July XD
That's all I'm willing to "talk" about for now. Maybe when I need to rant or clear my thoughts again I will be back so don't hope for another update soon. But seeing how my lj doesn't get much views I think it is safe to say that nobody is hoping for a miracle LOL
I think it is because 1)I don't update often 2) most of my private thoughts ie. the super personal entries are private and for my eyes only. Like Ahsie says, I don't blab online and her paranoia about her online activities are justifiable and more than mine. I wonder why? I think it is because I am generally speaking a very private individual? Most of thoughts are mine because I don't voice them out. My thoughts are a reflection of my mood and thought processes and I don't like to reveal myself easily to people. This is why I don't often blab online and may be the main reason why i'm a silent stalker on most fanfic sites XD On the other hand I have a tech savvy brother who can easily track my doings online so that makes me paranoid LOL Not that he will but his ability in this area makes me wary.
I have been on holiday since the 7th of May 2010 and have don't nothing productive with my time. I was thinking of looking for a job but i don't feel up to the rigour of working life, I have tried it once as a retail sales assistant and it has taught me much. I have learnt to control my infamous temper and learnt patience (according to my family). But the downside is the stress and loneliness that comes with it especially since i joined without any of my friends. While it is true that I may be able to make new friends, it just does not feel the same because for me friends are someone you should be able to trust and allow them to lean on you and vice versa but workplace colleagues are different, the situation is different, the setting is different, they are there to earn money, you may or may not be used as a pawn in office politics and I can't trust work colleagues easily because I feel that if they betray my trust, our professional relationship will go to hell. Sure I do get to make good friends but they are few and far between. It doesn't help that i take some time to warm up to people and that i come across as stuck up >x< thus making me unapproachable and hated on sight.....
Oh well some good things have happened, I went on a trip to south Korea, Seoul and it was quite fun :D and I finally have permission from my mom to learn driving XD after like 3 years... I behaved like a headless chicken with Ahsie while we were picking up her YOG uniform :D that was a psychotic and fun day :D and I donated blood for the second time of my life :D I was joking with L that I should make it a tradition to go and donate blood every July XD
That's all I'm willing to "talk" about for now. Maybe when I need to rant or clear my thoughts again I will be back so don't hope for another update soon. But seeing how my lj doesn't get much views I think it is safe to say that nobody is hoping for a miracle LOL