It's been awhile..
My life..is in purgatory...
Not heaven and not hell just in between and it's not a fun place to be in. I hate the school I'm in so bad I cry about it every once in awhile because I don't know what to do. I invested so much time into it and I am so close to finishing but this was time I will never get back. I'm so miserable I can't wake up to get to school on time anymore. It's taking away my passion for art, and that's probably the single worse thing of all.
Art has become too confusing to me, because of all the ideas put in my head that I have to question everything I do before I do it and stop half way because I'm so confident that what I'm doing just ISN'T good enough. Is this normal? ...
I don't know who to talk to...I don't know what to do...sometimes I just bust into tears cause I'm so unsure of myself now
I also am incapable of showing any of these emotions to anyone's face because I would take it as a sign of weakness..I don't want to tell people I'm weak because I'm scared of becoming dependent on others cause they'll just get tired of it...
Also I HATE my professor that I have in a few hours. He makes me feel so terrible T_T
I don't know what to do and what is right and what is wrong anymore when I used to be so fucking sure.
D:
Not heaven and not hell just in between and it's not a fun place to be in. I hate the school I'm in so bad I cry about it every once in awhile because I don't know what to do. I invested so much time into it and I am so close to finishing but this was time I will never get back. I'm so miserable I can't wake up to get to school on time anymore. It's taking away my passion for art, and that's probably the single worse thing of all.
Art has become too confusing to me, because of all the ideas put in my head that I have to question everything I do before I do it and stop half way because I'm so confident that what I'm doing just ISN'T good enough. Is this normal? ...
I don't know who to talk to...I don't know what to do...sometimes I just bust into tears cause I'm so unsure of myself now
I also am incapable of showing any of these emotions to anyone's face because I would take it as a sign of weakness..I don't want to tell people I'm weak because I'm scared of becoming dependent on others cause they'll just get tired of it...
Also I HATE my professor that I have in a few hours. He makes me feel so terrible T_T
I don't know what to do and what is right and what is wrong anymore when I used to be so fucking sure.
D: