walk away
never
i don't know.
maybe it'll never change.
i thought that things were different now. that i could finally get on with my life.
sorry claire.
sorry you're a dumbass.
you can never expect to get what you want.
or maybe normal people do. maybe you have to actually want it, not fear it.
unbelievable.
so stupid. i am so stupid.
obstinate. i am so unbelievably obstinate.
maybe the only problem is that i don't actually want it to change.
ugh.
can't escape feelings that you find comfort in.
hard to admit it, but i really do find comfort in unrequited affection. that's obvious.
i feel so fed up with myself.
what do you do when all you want is to change and you just can't?
a petty problem.
no big deal.
this is nothing but a petty problem.
this is just a girl being a girl. an incredibly stupid girly girl.
oh lord.
how have i not escaped this yet?
always have to exchange one problem with the next.
very hard to believe that this ever involved another person. or two.
except, it's different.
you know, a word can describe so little.
or nothing at all.
ugh.
raul needs to call me. he needs to help.
cause i don't know what i'm doing. raul pacifies my insanity.
haha. that sounds so dumb.
i hate him. so fucking much.
like that's fair.
don't i ever get tired of this?
rarely.
everyday.
never.
i don't know.
maybe it'll never change.
i thought that things were different now. that i could finally get on with my life.
sorry claire.
sorry you're a dumbass.
you can never expect to get what you want.
or maybe normal people do. maybe you have to actually want it, not fear it.
unbelievable.
so stupid. i am so stupid.
obstinate. i am so unbelievably obstinate.
maybe the only problem is that i don't actually want it to change.
ugh.
can't escape feelings that you find comfort in.
hard to admit it, but i really do find comfort in unrequited affection. that's obvious.
i feel so fed up with myself.
what do you do when all you want is to change and you just can't?
a petty problem.
no big deal.
this is nothing but a petty problem.
this is just a girl being a girl. an incredibly stupid girly girl.
oh lord.
how have i not escaped this yet?
always have to exchange one problem with the next.
very hard to believe that this ever involved another person. or two.
except, it's different.
you know, a word can describe so little.
or nothing at all.
ugh.
raul needs to call me. he needs to help.
cause i don't know what i'm doing. raul pacifies my insanity.
haha. that sounds so dumb.
i hate him. so fucking much.
like that's fair.
don't i ever get tired of this?
rarely.
everyday.
never.