I wish
I wish and hope and long for the kind of sleep where I can dream, wake in my own timing, and float through the images and feelings to the surface of my life with memories and impressions I can work with.
I wish my role with one foot in the healthcare system and the other foot outside it was more palatable and trustworthy to the most marginalized of women I work with. I wish they could trust me to have their and their babies' best interests in my heart. I wish there was a way for isolated young women to be in community and supported for the days after giving birth without being in the stupid hospital, and being effectively under surveillance. I wish I didn't need to sleep at all and could be with them around the clock. I wish the system wasn't shaped so that I feel the need to be.
I wish my role with one foot in the healthcare system and the other foot outside it was more palatable and trustworthy to the most marginalized of women I work with. I wish they could trust me to have their and their babies' best interests in my heart. I wish there was a way for isolated young women to be in community and supported for the days after giving birth without being in the stupid hospital, and being effectively under surveillance. I wish I didn't need to sleep at all and could be with them around the clock. I wish the system wasn't shaped so that I feel the need to be.