Well We've reached that time again...
Where I make myself sick.
Its no one elses fault but my own.
When i start to stress over school
Think to much over things I shouldnt think about.
Finals are in Two weeks.
and there shoving all these projects down our throats all due next week a last chance to raise a grade or dig your self a grave unfortunitly all these chances are given at the same time
Drivers Ed- Traveling Project
Bio-N/A
Spanish-Just a test
Fitness- didnt do it
Math-Kite Project
Honors English- Collage research and resume. The woman is Satan with a baby.
Then none of those are our finals. Seriously I sepnd seven hours learning shit that doesnt helpt me pick a career only burns me out on life..
But fuck school. Thats honestly not the point.
Enjoying life is the point.
My parents I think are reaching the point they dont want me around. At least larry doesnt and thats fine I dont need him. I never have. He wants to have my mom alone he never wanted me. He wanted her I just came along with the whole thing. Whatever tho' their 11 year annivesary is on sunday. But their celebrating it on Saturday.
Fuck it. I dont care.
I just realized i have a whole. Two friends. One qualifying as my boyfriend. I mean I have others but There so far awya and we're all not as close. Kinda makes you feel alone in this world.
Then theres the whole. Wants gonna happen if I lose my boyfriend thoughts, which i guess is really just putting myself through my own misery. The thought honestly fucking depresses me to no end. and I feel like completely hopeless, like a lost puppy. You know the cold feeling and like someone just dropped a bowling ball in the bit of your stomache.
and with my luck my worrying would push him away anyway. Along with My insecurities.
I'm sorry baby. I dont mean to...
But thats just me. I always find a way to fuck things up :)
Its no one elses fault but my own.
When i start to stress over school
Think to much over things I shouldnt think about.
Finals are in Two weeks.
and there shoving all these projects down our throats all due next week a last chance to raise a grade or dig your self a grave unfortunitly all these chances are given at the same time
Drivers Ed- Traveling Project
Bio-N/A
Spanish-Just a test
Fitness- didnt do it
Math-Kite Project
Honors English- Collage research and resume. The woman is Satan with a baby.
Then none of those are our finals. Seriously I sepnd seven hours learning shit that doesnt helpt me pick a career only burns me out on life..
But fuck school. Thats honestly not the point.
Enjoying life is the point.
My parents I think are reaching the point they dont want me around. At least larry doesnt and thats fine I dont need him. I never have. He wants to have my mom alone he never wanted me. He wanted her I just came along with the whole thing. Whatever tho' their 11 year annivesary is on sunday. But their celebrating it on Saturday.
Fuck it. I dont care.
I just realized i have a whole. Two friends. One qualifying as my boyfriend. I mean I have others but There so far awya and we're all not as close. Kinda makes you feel alone in this world.
Then theres the whole. Wants gonna happen if I lose my boyfriend thoughts, which i guess is really just putting myself through my own misery. The thought honestly fucking depresses me to no end. and I feel like completely hopeless, like a lost puppy. You know the cold feeling and like someone just dropped a bowling ball in the bit of your stomache.
and with my luck my worrying would push him away anyway. Along with My insecurities.
I'm sorry baby. I dont mean to...
But thats just me. I always find a way to fuck things up :)