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today started off great and i was in a wonderful mood and i thought things were going my way. but then i started to get angry and i started to think and i made a call and said some things that i should not have said. and now i am sad and i feel like i fucked up. i am staying home and not going to the show because i do not feel worthy of being around anyone. my poor roommates have to be around my shittiness anyways, they dont have a choice. i am disgusting and miserable. i hate my life sometimes. i sleep so much now. i dont ever feel rested anymore. i think i need to be somewhere else to get the sleep that i need. i need to be with someone to feel ested the next morning. i can't believe this is happening. i told myself it would not and that i would not let it happen. but fuck. it is. and i hate it. and i am miserable. shitty. horrid. i hate it.