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[sademodude84]

Well, it has been a long, sad few months. Last time I updated this journal was so long ago. Ok here's the rundown of the past few months: I was sooo in love with this girl, Kaia, and I asked her to be my muse. I just felt like my music wasn't... real NEmore. Long story short, she said no. I was like SHIT. So then I wen thome and took my electric razor and cut my wrists. (it took soooo long to breakt he skin with that piece of shit Panasonic) and then my brother came in and laughed at me and then told my mom and she came and took me to the hospital and from there I went to the mental ward. It was so lame. All these crazy motherfuckers everywhere, and I wwas just longing for sweet release. God I wish I could just tell the world How I feel I think maybe I could help some people out. I was listening to this unreleased track from AFI where it's just Davy and the guitar and it's so moving. It goes ike this:

I HAAAAAAATE
I HAVE KONWN PAIN
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I LOVE
I HAVE KNOWN LOVE
HAHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
And then there's this solo.

His acoustic guitar goes really well with his screaming voice that is just so melodic and... real.]]

so now i'm hme, though they took all my scissors and stuff out of my room. jeeze, it's not like Im gonna do something. Shit, I'll be right bak my bro is trying to get in myu rom so he can make fun of me prolly.