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the way i used to be, a night of heavy crying is all i needed to feel better. but lately i cry and cry and cry and only feel more pitiful. im so exhausted. ive always known what to do, i just dont always want to admit that life really is that fucking simple.
i absolutely have to quit smoking.
i absolutely have to start working out.
and i especially have to remember how happy dancing makes me...
so that means i have to get back into that harder than ever.
i used to make lists and schedules to help me feel sane.
maybe ill try doing that again too.
cuz whatever the hell ive been doing lately just isn't working anymore.
i used to get so annoyed with people who sit around all day and feel sorry for themselves.
"we all create our own reality," id say.
i guess its not a bad thing to stray from our own truth in order to realize just how true it is.