Well then..
So i went to see the theater-in-the-making production of twelfth night yesterday. It was bizare to see it from the audience, after being the one on stage for so many years. It made me realize how much I miss it. I don't regret choosing proof, that was such an amazing show, but I missed out on a good show. I read in the program that rehearsals are starting in January of next year for comedy of errors. Conviently, I'll be getting home from Australia on the first of January! Comedy of errors was the first really professional show i was in, I was a tiny role. How cool would it be do be in it again with the same director, and get one of those amazing parts? God, I can't even describe how cool it would be to have Miriam's part. Miriam, for those of you who don't know (which I guess is probably everyone...oh except for becca), was my idol in middle school. She was one of the most amazing actresses I had ever met, probably still is. How amazingly cool would it be to be Dromio? Kind of daunting, but so cool all the same.
Of course that would mean i'd have to skip out on school drama, but at this point, that would be more of a good thing than a bad thing. A bunch of idiots were hiding underneath the runway durring cabaret rehearsals yesterday, to get out of warming up, and i really felt like kicking all of them. no one seems to remember what it means to be an actor in this school anymore. there is no longer any respect for art, it's just a big fucking game to people, and all that matters is that you have fun every second of the day. I mean sure it should be fun, if it's not fun you shouldn't do it, but it's supposed to be work too. you're supposed to learn and discover and grow, through PRACTICE and EXERCISE. thats what warm ups are for, they aren't just innane stupid rituals, they connect you with your body so that you can connect your body with your character. and these idiots were hiding from them, like it was all a big joke that didn't matter at all. No wonder people are worried that show is going to be bad, with that lack of dedication, what do you expect.
It just for some reason solidified my indiference to this department. Why work with people who don't care? I want to learn and work myself, not spend my time forcing other people into doing it. You have to want to learn how to act in order to learn, and I don't want to waste my time participating in a show where people don't want to learn. So, I guess the point of this long rant is that I think I'm not coming back next year. Maybe, maybe if I got into Angels, and I could possibly be in both shows, and it was a cast i trusted, i'd think about it, but other than that, fuck it i'm done. I will train people in lights, and maybe i will be in angels, but that is all i will ever do in this drama department again. Unless something changes, I think that's my plan...
Of course that would mean i'd have to skip out on school drama, but at this point, that would be more of a good thing than a bad thing. A bunch of idiots were hiding underneath the runway durring cabaret rehearsals yesterday, to get out of warming up, and i really felt like kicking all of them. no one seems to remember what it means to be an actor in this school anymore. there is no longer any respect for art, it's just a big fucking game to people, and all that matters is that you have fun every second of the day. I mean sure it should be fun, if it's not fun you shouldn't do it, but it's supposed to be work too. you're supposed to learn and discover and grow, through PRACTICE and EXERCISE. thats what warm ups are for, they aren't just innane stupid rituals, they connect you with your body so that you can connect your body with your character. and these idiots were hiding from them, like it was all a big joke that didn't matter at all. No wonder people are worried that show is going to be bad, with that lack of dedication, what do you expect.
It just for some reason solidified my indiference to this department. Why work with people who don't care? I want to learn and work myself, not spend my time forcing other people into doing it. You have to want to learn how to act in order to learn, and I don't want to waste my time participating in a show where people don't want to learn. So, I guess the point of this long rant is that I think I'm not coming back next year. Maybe, maybe if I got into Angels, and I could possibly be in both shows, and it was a cast i trusted, i'd think about it, but other than that, fuck it i'm done. I will train people in lights, and maybe i will be in angels, but that is all i will ever do in this drama department again. Unless something changes, I think that's my plan...