Aug 07, 2005 22:51
Everthing disturbs me... But I disturb no one...
Jumping from shadow to shadow to hide the pain...
I walk by at least 100 people and no one noticed my tears slowly dripping down my face... Or my whimpering cries in the darkness...
I also realized that if I would have changed one little tiny thing in my life everything would be different right now... If I would have never gone to Eva's mom's wedding I would be in a totally different situation right now... I might still be a virgin... I might never have started smoking weed... I've reflected back on a lot of stuff in the last hour or so... I've made some pretty big mistakes to put me here... Where I am today... But oh well you can't just go back and change the past... Oh if only though... *dreams of a happier place where no hearts get broken and there is absolutely no drama* Ug... I have to stop being a dreamer... I need to be more of a do-er... But then I become hard and emotionless... But me being a dreamer makes me soft and having too much emotion... Oh well... Anyways that's my little whatever-you-call-it...
If you don't like it don't read it...
P.L.U.R.R. and C.A.L.M. everyone!