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Hmmm... it rained yesterday. I wanted to go out and play. But it was cold and I dont have a coat so I stayed in and stared out the window. What a damn waste.
And I got into a fight with marcus and my mom again. its hopeless. I swear Im alone in this family. I was going to run away.. but i didnt. Im a wuss so sad. I might have went to Nates to talk for a bit and then I dont know where I'd go. So stupid. Im soooo stupid.
and I had an odd dream the other night. It was crazy. Dj, Marcus, Birdman and a bunch of other guys all dressed in black were stealing everything from my house. And they had guns and stuff. They had a big red van and had too kids in it, and I have no clue why but they were there. A boy and a girl, the boy the older one. And I was so afraid. Afraid mostly of Dj, he seemed to be the head of the stealing thingy. And they took tons of stuff. even the phone, but he left one phone. After awhile I picked up and called 911 but it kept ringing and ringing and nobody would pick up then I heard DJ's voice on a different phone, that wasnt even plugged in or anything say "your trying to call the police on us, nice try" and came into the computer room. Man it was soooooo scary.. Now im hungry! I have weird dreams.. hmm
I have tons of homework due.. I didnt do any of it. im sowwy..
im sooo happy birdy hasnt left me yet. Im such an idiot and do all the wrong things at the wrong times. Im so helpless and hopeless and stupid. I wish i could be better for him. i try i promise i do. I just am not very good at it. but i love him sooo much, i hope he feels the same! If only hed get up >.< stupid away message!!!!
i better get marcus up for school, i dont have any socks and i cant walk in macs shoes so how the hell am i gonna get them to him? O.o good luck to me?
Love Always,
Yours Truly,
Whatever,
ReiRin...
<3
And I got into a fight with marcus and my mom again. its hopeless. I swear Im alone in this family. I was going to run away.. but i didnt. Im a wuss so sad. I might have went to Nates to talk for a bit and then I dont know where I'd go. So stupid. Im soooo stupid.
and I had an odd dream the other night. It was crazy. Dj, Marcus, Birdman and a bunch of other guys all dressed in black were stealing everything from my house. And they had guns and stuff. They had a big red van and had too kids in it, and I have no clue why but they were there. A boy and a girl, the boy the older one. And I was so afraid. Afraid mostly of Dj, he seemed to be the head of the stealing thingy. And they took tons of stuff. even the phone, but he left one phone. After awhile I picked up and called 911 but it kept ringing and ringing and nobody would pick up then I heard DJ's voice on a different phone, that wasnt even plugged in or anything say "your trying to call the police on us, nice try" and came into the computer room. Man it was soooooo scary.. Now im hungry! I have weird dreams.. hmm
I have tons of homework due.. I didnt do any of it. im sowwy..
im sooo happy birdy hasnt left me yet. Im such an idiot and do all the wrong things at the wrong times. Im so helpless and hopeless and stupid. I wish i could be better for him. i try i promise i do. I just am not very good at it. but i love him sooo much, i hope he feels the same! If only hed get up >.< stupid away message!!!!
i better get marcus up for school, i dont have any socks and i cant walk in macs shoes so how the hell am i gonna get them to him? O.o good luck to me?
Love Always,
Yours Truly,
Whatever,
ReiRin...
<3