AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! to mom and dad:
im so pissed! OMG! i cant even keep a journal without getting yelled at for something i wrote in here.....i cant do anything private anymore...so, unfortunatly, im going to put this journal as friends only. sry, but, i have to keep something in my life private....its so pathetic..
i mean, if it was something big, id tell my parents, so mom and dad, if u are reading this....which im sure u are, ID TELL U IF IT WAS IMPORTANT...im so tired of this shit, can anyoe ever respect a little of my privacy..im allowed to say whatever u want on my journal...cause thats the only thing i want for my self..thats it..i drink, yes i do..BUT IM NOT AN ALCOHOLIC!!! what teenager doesnt! im soooo pissed! and im on drugs...uhhhh OK! geez...i wish someone could respect me. yeah, im always gone at justins, and i know that thats a problem. I UNDERSTAND! its a dumb phase in my life, im in love and stupid. im allowed to make mistakes. i know i should learn from them, and im trying my damndest to be a better person. but i make a dumb mistake, an that means im not trying to change. im a teenager, im dumb, stupid and nieve. ill learn in my own time. its not gonna be years, and its not gonna be tommorow...but i am trying, believe it or not! pls understand and be there for me, thats all i ask. i dont purposly ignore u guys, i dont try to spite or hurt u guys. im trying my hardest...im tired of being involved in the dramatics of arguing and fighting, and me walking away as the bad, fucked up daughter. im a person, and i have feeling. i try to respect that about u two, but u seem to forget that. im so happy with my life right now..justin and i are happy. i love u guys and my awesome sister. heather and i have grown together and i respect and love her more than anything. i would put my life on the line for my family. know that pls. im trying to live my life as best as i can. i may not be perfect in all aspects, but i try very hard to survive day to day and at the end of the day, learn and grow, ad love more than i did the day before. i have an awesome family, im not ashamed or embarrassed to be a Bartaway. i have gone through so much, with that psycho terrianne, and dad u were there for me the whole way. and my parents have always supported me. i love u guys so much, andi hope u know that. accept me for me, take the good and the bad, im your daughter. and u guys are my parents. i will never ever sever that tie..ever. i wish i wouldnt be threated to being disowned for the stupid mistakes i make.
im sry to all those who read my jornal...that i cant stand. im making it friends only for a reason. not to make my parents mad, or hurt them or whatever, but to keep something of mine private, my thoughts and my day to day activities. so...comment and if ur not on my friends list, and ill make u apart of my world. lol.
EVERYONE COMMENT, SO I KNOW THAT PPL ACTUALLY READ THIS THING, AND IF NO ONE DOES..ITS OVER! LOL.
COMMENT!
i mean, if it was something big, id tell my parents, so mom and dad, if u are reading this....which im sure u are, ID TELL U IF IT WAS IMPORTANT...im so tired of this shit, can anyoe ever respect a little of my privacy..im allowed to say whatever u want on my journal...cause thats the only thing i want for my self..thats it..i drink, yes i do..BUT IM NOT AN ALCOHOLIC!!! what teenager doesnt! im soooo pissed! and im on drugs...uhhhh OK! geez...i wish someone could respect me. yeah, im always gone at justins, and i know that thats a problem. I UNDERSTAND! its a dumb phase in my life, im in love and stupid. im allowed to make mistakes. i know i should learn from them, and im trying my damndest to be a better person. but i make a dumb mistake, an that means im not trying to change. im a teenager, im dumb, stupid and nieve. ill learn in my own time. its not gonna be years, and its not gonna be tommorow...but i am trying, believe it or not! pls understand and be there for me, thats all i ask. i dont purposly ignore u guys, i dont try to spite or hurt u guys. im trying my hardest...im tired of being involved in the dramatics of arguing and fighting, and me walking away as the bad, fucked up daughter. im a person, and i have feeling. i try to respect that about u two, but u seem to forget that. im so happy with my life right now..justin and i are happy. i love u guys and my awesome sister. heather and i have grown together and i respect and love her more than anything. i would put my life on the line for my family. know that pls. im trying to live my life as best as i can. i may not be perfect in all aspects, but i try very hard to survive day to day and at the end of the day, learn and grow, ad love more than i did the day before. i have an awesome family, im not ashamed or embarrassed to be a Bartaway. i have gone through so much, with that psycho terrianne, and dad u were there for me the whole way. and my parents have always supported me. i love u guys so much, andi hope u know that. accept me for me, take the good and the bad, im your daughter. and u guys are my parents. i will never ever sever that tie..ever. i wish i wouldnt be threated to being disowned for the stupid mistakes i make.
im sry to all those who read my jornal...that i cant stand. im making it friends only for a reason. not to make my parents mad, or hurt them or whatever, but to keep something of mine private, my thoughts and my day to day activities. so...comment and if ur not on my friends list, and ill make u apart of my world. lol.
EVERYONE COMMENT, SO I KNOW THAT PPL ACTUALLY READ THIS THING, AND IF NO ONE DOES..ITS OVER! LOL.
COMMENT!