It's all about the breaks.

[sad_and_strange]

I have a break from school today. Parent/teacher conferences. I needed today. I'm sick and not going to school means I can be sick in my own home, where I'm more comfortable. Plus, I can blow my nose whenever I need to, not only if the teacher has kleenex in their room. Not only am I taking a break from school, but I'm taking a break from AJ. Sunday, I asked him to leave the room and he freaked out and left the house completely. After that I realized "Hey, I do need a break from him." He's around ALL THE TIME. I never have a day to myself, and I need that. This break is allowing me to have several days to myself. I need this break damn it. I actually had to yell at AJ too. I think more yelling is necessary to get it through his head that he can be happy without me and that he can do things without me. I don't think he gets it. Are you that dependent on someone else? It's really sad actually. And then Monday he leaves me a message saying that he's in the hospital and he made it sound like he had done something stupid and he wasn't going to be out of the hospital for a while, and it wasn't just the hospital it was the mental hospital or something. But it turned out that he got dizzy and passed out at work because of some medication his doctor gave him. Oh, and he wasn't in the hospital, he was in the ER. And he was able to go home. Was he trying to get me to worry about him so I'd say that I wanted to see him? Come on. You just seem desperate when you leave messages like that and then the other person finds out the truth. It's fucking pathetic actually. What the fuck was he thinking? So yeah, I'm only getting more aggitated and he's not even around. He just doesn't get it either. I need a break. He thinks a couple hours of him not being around is enough. It's not. It never will be. And he kept calling Sunday too. It was like, LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE GOD DAMN IT! I even had to tell him on Monday that I would call HIM. And even when this break is over, he's going to be spending less time with me. He's not going to stay the night anymore and we're not going to spend the entire day together either. He's not going to be around if I'm hanging out with my friends anymore. He's going to have to learn to be more independent, basically. He has friends, he should hang out with them sometime.
Anyway...I think those tutors at CSU-Pueblo that help you with your writing are fucking idiots. We HAD to submit our essays into them this time, and the girl who read mine took my first paragraph the wrong way. I wasn't trying to create the perfect student. There are students like that (the way I described them) and they would just come to my "perfect school". It pissed me off that she took it the wrong way. Basically, I was describing me as a student. It's not the perfect student at all. And it's not like I'm the only one like that either. Anyway, I want to write her back and tell her she's fucking stupid, but I'm not going to.
The N on my keyboard is wearing off. It looks like half of an N. It's weird. Well, I think I'm going to attempt to hang my new posters up. They came yesterday. Yay!