Fuck being a vegan, I'm becoming a fruitarian!
Oh man, these last few days. I've tried to write about them a few times but my hands will just become paralyzed when trying to sum up their vastness. I guess it feels a bit more manageable now. I am able to recognize that a lot of the things that seemed huge either make no sense or didn't really happen.
before I start: There is going to be an Arrested Development movie!!!!!! and I forgot my brother existed.
Althought things seem unrelated, I would say my attunement got the ball rolling for a whole lot of deep shit. On Sunday, Zac, Sus and I all learned Reiki from Jonah as a part of our ISP and for our own interest. The day involved about 7 hours of training and meditation. It was incredibly meditative. I felt a very increased capacity to feel. It was hard at first, trying to channel energy through my hands, I didn't know if I was actually feeling anything. When I got attuned I didn't know if I was actually feeling anything, and it seemed to go by a lot quicker than Zac or Sus's attunement. Doing Reiki was an incredibly visual process. When I closed my eyes I could see a couple of shapes over and over again. There would be a few different ones that would emerge as I softened my eyes. Shapes like 2 trees growing into each other and forming a circle. I'd never seen anything like this before, but I see something like them now every time I do reiki.
I didn't really know what the attunement was going to be like. I think this may have been on purpose on Jonah's end. After being attuned I did Reiki on Sus and Zac and had some done on me by Zac. After that I was incredibly drained. I had no idea it could be so draining. We went back to Pine street and did some on Topher to help his broken leg. When I actually did it on his leg (we did it on his whole body) the energy was incredibly intense.
I really enjoy doing reiki. It is incredibly meditative for me. Rather than in meditation when I tend to think a lot about not thinking, I actually have something to focus on and don't worry about thoughts floating through my mind. For the most part I can still feel the energy being channeled through my hands and I can still focus on what I am doing. Sometimes when the energy in certain parts is particularly strong I go into a kind of trance.
I fell asleep at Pine street. Zac, Sus and I had Scot's class the next day. A lot of things happened the next day, but I am either not supposed to talk about them, they didn't really happen or they don't make sense. I was just incredibly emotional the next day, and feeling a great deal. I felt like I had the capacity to feel anything. As much or as little as possible in any direction. I'll probably write more about this later, what I actually discovered while in class, because it was quite an interesting day.
When i got back to Pine street I felt drained and overwhelmed. I couldn't believe how much I was feeling. It was too much, and I had somewhat of a breakdown while talking to Bre. I stayed for awhile longer. I showed Devin pictures of Israel and made him REALLY REALLY want to pretend to be Jewish and go on a birthright trip with me next winter. Oh god that would be fantastic. I ended up bailing out of poetry night and helping Zac with the zine and falling asleep at 6pm. I actually got a full nights sleep, too, oddly enough, with only a few hours of waking up in the middle.
Yesterday I basically took it easy, went to classes, ate a lot of food, didn't really do much.
before I start: There is going to be an Arrested Development movie!!!!!! and I forgot my brother existed.
Althought things seem unrelated, I would say my attunement got the ball rolling for a whole lot of deep shit. On Sunday, Zac, Sus and I all learned Reiki from Jonah as a part of our ISP and for our own interest. The day involved about 7 hours of training and meditation. It was incredibly meditative. I felt a very increased capacity to feel. It was hard at first, trying to channel energy through my hands, I didn't know if I was actually feeling anything. When I got attuned I didn't know if I was actually feeling anything, and it seemed to go by a lot quicker than Zac or Sus's attunement. Doing Reiki was an incredibly visual process. When I closed my eyes I could see a couple of shapes over and over again. There would be a few different ones that would emerge as I softened my eyes. Shapes like 2 trees growing into each other and forming a circle. I'd never seen anything like this before, but I see something like them now every time I do reiki.
I didn't really know what the attunement was going to be like. I think this may have been on purpose on Jonah's end. After being attuned I did Reiki on Sus and Zac and had some done on me by Zac. After that I was incredibly drained. I had no idea it could be so draining. We went back to Pine street and did some on Topher to help his broken leg. When I actually did it on his leg (we did it on his whole body) the energy was incredibly intense.
I really enjoy doing reiki. It is incredibly meditative for me. Rather than in meditation when I tend to think a lot about not thinking, I actually have something to focus on and don't worry about thoughts floating through my mind. For the most part I can still feel the energy being channeled through my hands and I can still focus on what I am doing. Sometimes when the energy in certain parts is particularly strong I go into a kind of trance.
I fell asleep at Pine street. Zac, Sus and I had Scot's class the next day. A lot of things happened the next day, but I am either not supposed to talk about them, they didn't really happen or they don't make sense. I was just incredibly emotional the next day, and feeling a great deal. I felt like I had the capacity to feel anything. As much or as little as possible in any direction. I'll probably write more about this later, what I actually discovered while in class, because it was quite an interesting day.
When i got back to Pine street I felt drained and overwhelmed. I couldn't believe how much I was feeling. It was too much, and I had somewhat of a breakdown while talking to Bre. I stayed for awhile longer. I showed Devin pictures of Israel and made him REALLY REALLY want to pretend to be Jewish and go on a birthright trip with me next winter. Oh god that would be fantastic. I ended up bailing out of poetry night and helping Zac with the zine and falling asleep at 6pm. I actually got a full nights sleep, too, oddly enough, with only a few hours of waking up in the middle.
Yesterday I basically took it easy, went to classes, ate a lot of food, didn't really do much.