WTF with Christian men?
Im mad as hell that Christian men demand to be respected, demand to be supported, demand to be followed. When every one, except Zac, I have ever been with, or who has talked to me about being together, lead me straight into sin then blamed their flesh and said they were so sorry.
Every time its the same.
"You are beautiful. I know God has plans for you. I think you are fantastic. I want to be with you forever," maybe even suggest love or use the word. Some take their time doing it. Some get it out there in the first day, week, month. Whatever. Then its always the same thing: Im so sorry. I just got caught up. Sometimes they fess up and say: I knew it wasnt God's will. Sometimes they dont. Sometimes they dont acknowledge it at all, the most recent saying only: we both screwed up. I am really sorry. I never wanted it to... but its all the same. If you are sorry why is it girl after girl it happens? Why is it you all know your limitations yet end up in the same fucking sictuations? Fuck them all.
It all starts the same. It all ends the same. I dated Christian guys I dated non-Christians. They are all the same. I am an object no matter. That's not really true. Interestingly, with the non-Christians I always felt more respected, listened to, valued as something more than arm candy. I want a man who knows me, values me, loves me. But love means you have to learn to fucking control yourself. And if you are a Christian guy, or hell, if you just know Christian guy, please tell him if he cant keep himself from walking into sin and asking me to go with him, dont fucking take me or any of my friends out.
Men, if you want to lead: do so. But do it with integrity!! And the righteousness you tell me you are pursuing both before and after.
And if you cant contain yourself dont you dare use the words I love you.
Also, dont get me wrong. I am more than willing to take accountability for my shit too. I know where my buttons are. I know when and where it is appropriate and inappropriate to be with a boy. I am finally getting to the point where I am willing to say "if you dont know where it is and isnt appropriate to be dont you dare ask me out". I am totally willing to set boundaries, talk about appropriate places and situations, convictions. the crap part is when the people I love and who claim to love me tell me things like: i really dont think this is wrong, i love you baby (while his hands go down my pants), can i? you are so pretty... its called manipulation assholes. And im fed up with it.
Every time its the same.
"You are beautiful. I know God has plans for you. I think you are fantastic. I want to be with you forever," maybe even suggest love or use the word. Some take their time doing it. Some get it out there in the first day, week, month. Whatever. Then its always the same thing: Im so sorry. I just got caught up. Sometimes they fess up and say: I knew it wasnt God's will. Sometimes they dont. Sometimes they dont acknowledge it at all, the most recent saying only: we both screwed up. I am really sorry. I never wanted it to... but its all the same. If you are sorry why is it girl after girl it happens? Why is it you all know your limitations yet end up in the same fucking sictuations? Fuck them all.
It all starts the same. It all ends the same. I dated Christian guys I dated non-Christians. They are all the same. I am an object no matter. That's not really true. Interestingly, with the non-Christians I always felt more respected, listened to, valued as something more than arm candy. I want a man who knows me, values me, loves me. But love means you have to learn to fucking control yourself. And if you are a Christian guy, or hell, if you just know Christian guy, please tell him if he cant keep himself from walking into sin and asking me to go with him, dont fucking take me or any of my friends out.
Men, if you want to lead: do so. But do it with integrity!! And the righteousness you tell me you are pursuing both before and after.
And if you cant contain yourself dont you dare use the words I love you.
Also, dont get me wrong. I am more than willing to take accountability for my shit too. I know where my buttons are. I know when and where it is appropriate and inappropriate to be with a boy. I am finally getting to the point where I am willing to say "if you dont know where it is and isnt appropriate to be dont you dare ask me out". I am totally willing to set boundaries, talk about appropriate places and situations, convictions. the crap part is when the people I love and who claim to love me tell me things like: i really dont think this is wrong, i love you baby (while his hands go down my pants), can i? you are so pretty... its called manipulation assholes. And im fed up with it.