if you kill me, know

[sacrificedreams]

I spent all day on the couch.
I ate until I thought my stomach would explode.
Women all over the world do this every day.
It's not because we are hungry.
It's not because we are sick.
It's because we keep hoping if we get fat enough
thin enough
sick enough
dumb enough
quiet enough
loud enough
no one will notice us.
Or at least, those demons who reside in men
who convince them to speak out
won't notice us. Won't say things to us,
won't threaten to rape us
or threaten to take advantage of us
or threaten to kill us
if
we get smarter than they
are.
Smarter than their interpretation of the Bible.
Smarter than their interpretation of what God said.
God said her sins were forgiven.
God said to love your wife like He loves the church.
But you use your size and sexuality to intimidate
to suppress. To depress. To kill
steal.
destroy.
you are the devil incarnate.
I hope I never have to see you again.
I've never been raped by a man who really knew the Lord-
just the ones who claim to.

"he pulls in the drive, gravel flies. He dont know whats waiting here this time. he wants a fight, now he's got one. slapped my face. shook me like a rag doll. ... his fist is bigger. my gun's bigger."