this is so messed up
before i even start off with my emo shit
because...pat yourself on the back..you caught me
in my most emo day ever. really congrats.
but this entry is foremost dedicated to erika.
so stop bitching to me that i need to update.
school is really school, not much to it, enough is said there.
progress reports tomorrow, yeah its like every other
day we get fucking report cards or progress reports
& our parents have like 24/7 control of our grade.
i love technology.
the music is getting ghettoer, if thats a word.
& how they sing that you can be dumb as fuck, but i just want you here.
thats alright.
cold fronts are coming in, im bitching, but i love it.
saturday & sunday are supposed to be cold/rainy, how awesome.
fighting annoys the shit out of me, what can i do.
you're starting to see me, & its pain, but go on, make it hurt.
you leave me at my highest, when were both stoned
& you knock me down, when im here pointing a gun
at my head, when ska voices mend in your head.
on other news...i made my christmas list
the other day, not bad.
the priciest thing on there is
a car, thats all. hah.
& something thats on top of my list,
& i'll sit on the 25th searching the crowd,
looking for a green eyed boy, named lust.
why try. rush. rush. rush.
about less than a month till my birthday. wonderful.
im sober & fine again.
trying to stay sober & im dying.
hold on tight, everything's gonna be fine.
in my car, sunset drive, too late. dont do this.
i dont want something i need.
i want something i want, something pretty. yeah.
holidays are coming up, my brothers gonna be in town.
& im done.
<33333
every time you lied
i'd whisper this..
hellogoobye.