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Saw brokeback mountain tonight. It was fun and an excellent movie. Went with Andy and Grace.
I am kinda depressed though right now. For many different reasons. Mostly about a certain fanfiction author. I must ask myself why this is? I barely knew her really. She was cool person though. I still read her blog religiously. I haven't read the fic recently, but I think about it. I am really upset by this still. Honestly why should I care about someone being mad at me who lives in freakin' CHINA. But I do. I hate having people mad at me. I seldom ever stay mad myself and I feel that there is nothing more that I can do about it.
I honestly wish that Kay would just drop me a line and tell me that she doen't want to talk to me anymore, then atleast I could forget about it. As excited as I was for chapter 16, not so much for 17a now. Which is nearly done and ready for beta. I mean I have only sent her two emails in the last two weeks one for xmas and one for new years. I appologized several times? What the hell else can I do? What I said wasn't even that bad and here I go worrying about it again when I keep telling myself not too.
Fucking hell.
I am kinda depressed though right now. For many different reasons. Mostly about a certain fanfiction author. I must ask myself why this is? I barely knew her really. She was cool person though. I still read her blog religiously. I haven't read the fic recently, but I think about it. I am really upset by this still. Honestly why should I care about someone being mad at me who lives in freakin' CHINA. But I do. I hate having people mad at me. I seldom ever stay mad myself and I feel that there is nothing more that I can do about it.
I honestly wish that Kay would just drop me a line and tell me that she doen't want to talk to me anymore, then atleast I could forget about it. As excited as I was for chapter 16, not so much for 17a now. Which is nearly done and ready for beta. I mean I have only sent her two emails in the last two weeks one for xmas and one for new years. I appologized several times? What the hell else can I do? What I said wasn't even that bad and here I go worrying about it again when I keep telling myself not too.
Fucking hell.